Where I've Been... Where I'm going...

Date:   8/18/2016 2:47:36 AM ( 8 y ago)

It's half five, 30 days in - yesterday I ate a small meal so today I am just juicing again, it
s pineapple day :) Cut into the golden pineapple I bought last week before the quick trip to the city -- this morning I had a cup of tea, then a little later a pineapple/fennel/zucchini/parsley and rocket juice with aloe/tumeric & ginger - - later on, I blended up the leftover sour cherry smoothie I had mare a couple days ago with more raw cocoa and had a glass of that, and around 5 I made another juice, pineapple, pear and the water from one young coconut with the other half a vanilla bean scraped in and a little bit of maca powder.
Very nice juices today - delish, felt like adding in more veg and greens again :)

Last night after blogging, I had a leaf thru all my blogs from this fast & was kind of amazed going over what I've been though in this short time - so much beaurocracy! God, it took its toll on me in stress and anxiety, travel, work and so on - this morning found me drafting a legal type letter but by lunchtime I had put that out of my thoughts and get into a great recording session working on my music, bringing back the good vibes and inspiration. So much rubbish and draconian evil and nastiness to plague us these days - goddamn slave society... sheer insanity, cruelty and destruction. Anyway... I never voted for this. We should be free to live in harmony as our ancestors all did without the made up laws of murdering kings.

Well - there's often a great big gap between what should and could be and what is... I guess we're our best when we don't lose sight of the ideal.

My friend left after the recording session, so now I've a week and a half on my own out here - and recording gear all set up to work on my mic technique and solo versions of my songs.

My brown drops turned red this morning, and I've been spotting all day, the crampy feeling is gone and I feel better than I did, last night was really tough, too much negativity in one day overwhelmed me by the end of it - heavy nasty stuff, really awful... From family slander and threats to dodgy executors, insane ex boyfriends writing hate mail, other member of his family hating on me and more slander, the pressure of having to come up with an almost instant legal position to counter the insinuated disregard for due process going on with my inheritance etc, etc, etc.. Hormones and things probably didn't help matters... I woke this morning with that feeling but practice and the music and a beautiful day blew it all away, feel really clear now and clear of those toxic emotions!

Feel a little tired now, not sure how my energy's going to be tonight - I'm thirsty for another drink, so I'll go make one and maybe just some quiet time reading for a bit - the sun is setting outside, today was really warm and beautiful. I feel peaceful here now, younger than I was when I started this fast and getting back to work on music is massively healing for my soul. I can see the light again.

No bushwalking today, I miight try some yoga or just really gentle stretching later tonight if I get a bit more energy up, think it might just be some reading, a bath and sauna, more reading and an early one... not sure I even have the energy for any more recording but we will see.

So I guess tonight is the start or the prep for the next week and a half of retreat space here. Going to contemplate that a little. Looks like this journey is going to keep going at least till the end of Aug, I'm in no mind or feeling to stop, just going to keep juicing, eating a little some days and not on others and continue for now.



 

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