Leslie with Kitchen Catering Aramark Staff at Organic Farming Research Foundation luncheon at #expowest
This morning i am asking if i have the strength for the butterfly to emerge. Facing deep feelings. i will write about it now and see what is possible.
The last couple days I took a vacation from the core physical reality of how I am living at home and what my space looks like.
I journeyed into a place and found support testing the waters of my ongoing relationships with some of the unique events that I do every year that signal the beginning of my campaign season at The Natural Product Expo, March 9-13. (Check dates.) This year, I am also heading for a conference in the next couple days in integrative health here in San Diego.
I've been going through photos, attempting to establish and reestablish some order. I get great joy in seeing images of where I've been and what I've done .
The images profoundly build my confidence and are responsible for helping me summon the strength to ask for complementary admission to expensive events based on years of service.
Yes, of course you are welcome. You are deserving . You are an excepted part of what we do here and you have served. We esteem you here and respond positively to you.
If I did nothing but continue to work through the details to succeed at these upcoming events my plate would be full, but this morning I woke up in the state of nightmare returning again to feel into very difficult places close to home that evoke terror, The feeling of lack of support is with me. Can I find the strength. i am facing very difficult conditions that I'm not sure I can manage .
dear God help me now .
One of your servants is very concerned I have what it takes to move through this. it would be simplier lay this aside at least for a couple more weeks.
I have a conference about to momentarily begin. I'd like to continue to organize for the next month's success and truly be free to focus. Can I claim the space to do that?
What strategy can I have overcome what needs to be overcome?
8:17 am