First day of dry fasting is quite uneventful. I slept through much of it. Didn't anticipate this hot weather to be a factor but it may perhaps change my plans.

Date:   10/11/2015 6:16:17 PM ( 9 y ago)

If you look back at my previous fasting posts I can be very detailed with my observations of thoughts, feelings, and physical symptoms. I am actually doing this fast with the hope I can be less preoccupied/identified with the body and increase my connection to Spirit/Source.

I've spent much of my life being preoccupied with healing the body and don't feel that much physically healthier. As a student of "A Course In Miracles" , I know I've learned illness is from the Mind and projected onto our bodies. I have a great many beliefs about the body all of which I have learned from the world. I want to withdraw all these beliefs and ideas i think I have about my body (removing energy/power behind those thoughts). A suspension of disbelief if you will. i want to open up my willingness to gain an understanding of who I am beyond this body.

I want to surrender the idea of "deprivation, limit, lack, weakness, illness" which the body teaches and instead connect with the Spirit which teaches Wholeness, limitless, Strength, Oneness.

It's 12:08pm
I observe and notice what I'm am experiencing but actively ignoring the voice of my ego that wants to compare and analyze. Though they served me before as a means to distract so as to reach my old fasting goals. This time I let these ideas float away like balloons. I do not want to be preoccupied with conflicting thoughts. I want freedom and peace instead. I focus on my breath. I inhale and say "I am well. I am whole.I am at peace. I am free"
I release conflicting thoughts, fear, and anxiety by accepting this very moment as it is.

It's 4pm
I've stayed in bed and slept much of the day. (Went to bed at 4am last night). I am tempted to talk about details of what my body feels but I gently remind myself that this is not what it is about.

I was briefly awake 8:30 to 11am which I spent sitting quietly doing my lesson and also made an entry on this post. I went back to sleep and had no problem being knocked out. I find that I am thirsty simply because it's 94F in Southern California and starting to sweat a little on my back. The A/C is on but body feels pretty warm and mouth dry since I woke up. I'm debating about continuing this dry fast simply because of this hot dry weather. I didn't have this to deal with this during my previous dry fasts so I didn't think much about this. Hmmm well I will continue to meditate/pray and do my lessons. I will ask for guidance and listen to what my body tells me.

7:30pm
My meditation helped significantly. I thought of the light of God reaching me and reflecting this throughout the universe. I felt peace and also at some point my mouth had salivated. This was a relief indeed to my dry mouth. I cooked spaghetti for the family and had no struggles with doing so.

I finished a 40 minute walk and temperature has cooled down outside. Wooohooo. I am just over 21 hours into this dry fast.




 

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