Holy wow!!! It's April 1, 2015 and I'm officially in the middle of Day 3. When getting started, 3 feels like a long ways away. But I'm here! I feel elated!

Date:   4/1/2015 2:31:27 PM ( 9 y ago)

First things first. I have lost approximately 2 pounds with each day of the fast. Second, I can't believe it's day 3!!!! I am just so grateful it's been easier to get this far than it's been before. Easier in the sense that there was less struggling and resistance involved so far. It makes a difference being able to meditate and pray through this fast. I feel that things are seeming to align better to help me get through this. You know how Little things can get in the way like family gatherings or events that you can't get out of. You have no choice but to brace yourself and pray for dear life you can overcome. Then there's the hubby. Now he's never been the healthy type. Seems to have no need or interest to go that route. He eats basically what he wants and when he wants. Even though I've been a health nut since he met me. I was vegetarian when he did and he's a total meat eater. lol. As much as I've preached about health and all it's pretty much had no effect on him. He respects what I do but he's happy with himself and for the most part sees no reason to change his ways when it comes to eating. That's quite challenging when trying to set guidelines with what to eat with our kids. We basically have 2 standards. The healthy stuff I dish out and then anything goes for the hubby. I'm going to have to have a chat with him and ask for his help so I can get through this.

As far as weight. I started at 147. I'm 5'3 and my goal weight is 125. After having my fourth child I went down to low 130s. I was eating Paleo and lots of raw food and going doing Zumba 4-5 times a week. But interestingly, I had a flare up with inflammation/ arthritis (I've had this problem in my early 20s). I think I overdid it with the Zumba. Working out was giving me pain and wouldn't go away even when I would take days or even weeks off. This was hard because I love getting my endorphin fix with working out and it was a great release for stress or any frustrations. Somehow the universe kept me out of the gym. But there was a higher purpose. I got more focused on my spiritual growth. Unfortunately, I ended up getting too relaxed with my eating and reverting to old old very old ways. I wanted to fast to just reset everything and start over clean with my body, mind, and spirit. I've found fasting or going on some kind of cleanse program did that for me. I want to re-establish good eating habits and change my relationship with food and my body. Not in the usual sense that it means, but going into some real deep spiritual stuff.

It's 12:23pm and am feeling quite tired and light headed. I just want to lay in bed and rest. It's a beautiful day in Southern California. I'm going out in my backyard a few minutes repeatedly throughout the day to just get some rays, to clear my energy and thoughts, as well as get some healing energy.

Perhaps I'm not just clearing out the physical gunk with this fast but am sure the emotional as well. All the more I am in need of some serious mediation. I am actually going to meditate under the beautiful sun and sky right now. Maybe I'll have a more deepened experience with meditation with this fast. Off I go.

Sending all my fellow fasters love, light, peace with your journey.

Ohh I thought I'd change my avatar from a picture of the beach to one of me just for the duration of this fast. I don't know but I think it helps to put a face to the messages when communicating with other fasting buddies.

4:30pm
I had a good cleansing/healing meditation outside. Felt so much better after it. I decided to hit the gym for a bit and got some time in the sauna and on the treadmill. I am feeling so much stronger and have more energy this time around. Although I think my body temp got really elevated. After hitting the gym I stayed in my car with the windows up and it was like a sweat box. I am gonna do an epsom salt soak to cool down and get some Magnesium. Feeling increased pressure in my head and whoozy. A bath and into bed for me.

9pm
That soak made such a difference. Unfortunately I didn't get to go to bed but instead had to an unexpected guest so rushed with cleaning and cooking. A headache came on early in the evening and has moderately worsened. Boy this evening was quite challenging. I felt pretty vulnerable to food temptations. I know having this headache and being tired is contributing to my weakness. I actually had a couple of moments of entertaning the thought to throw in the towel. But thankfully, the voice of reason is still much louder. And so Day 3 comes to a close and a very much needed Day 4 begins. wooohooo

 

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