Turning dying around

Date:   5/19/2014 9:37:03 AM ( 10 y ago)

Turning dying around

I had some very shocking moments this morning. The emotions that were coming up inside me and the feelings felt like death.

I believe it's a good thing to name death when we are feeling it inside us. Dying is a horrible thing to experience.

I'd like to share with you what it feels like for me to die. I been doing a lot dying for months now.

More soon....

Please watch this first video:

http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=2174401

I will be making references to what it says in this blog and future blogs . Thanks- Leslie

7:48 am
May 18, 2014


TODAY'S IS A BREAKTHROUGH MORNING IF I CAN CONTINUE TO BELIEVE IN MY DREAMS

before dawn this morning, I was having some positive thoughts about a meeting I had was to my housemates. In the meeting one housemate was sharing that we needed to put on the board, our community board, what we are each doing as a house job. I live with seven other people.

Experience of living with others especially during the last three or more months has been draining a lot of life out of me.

I Feel I have reached a critical point. I left home about a month ago to attend a retreat. At the retreat expresses a group I did not feel I could go home. I could not endure any more of what I have been creating. The retreat began to feel a bit better. I came home resolved that if we could as a group begin together in a council where we listen to each other I couldn't begin to come back alive again. No one has really responded positively to my suggestion.

Each morning for months now I wake up at dawn I dread daylight. I cover my eyes with the silk scarf I wear around my neck. I tend to go back to sleep. I feel very little reason to get out of bed.

It's frequently shocking to feel the byproduct so much stagnation coming up from inside me. It's really very painful. Maybe you can relate. I'm sure numbers of you reading this blog on Curezone have been in similar places where you question your health.

I'm having increased physical symptoms. I know they relate to the internal frustration I feel where I can't seem to make progress.

For months I've been attempting to get a housemate to fill vacancy

Had months is shocking experiences with potential housemates saying they wanted to move in but never following through.

The honeymoon of excitement is short-lived. Many are very enthusiastic about living here but then other factors show up such as distance to work, or other reasons.

I've gotten myself stuck it's very difficult trade relationships here.

Enough! Enough!

Enough of physical symptoms bronchial congestion holding on for months kidney back pains feelings of infections in my gum! All these have emotional connections.

this morning things were different. Following the pain that came up from deep., I began to feel my inspiration moving again.

I admit numbers of these feelings are connected with a new potential housemate, a traveler, a filmmaker who will only be here for the summer.

But in this moment I have a list of new insights

1. Our Death Denying Culture--Guy McPherson opening thought on the video.

http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=2174401

2. The Pizza Box is a Coffin

To be dead is to live without dreams….so take your Sacred Seed out of the Box and Plant Your Dream.

Dr. Bernard Jensen: Which do you choose as a source of Iron: The Ripe Cherry high in natural iron or the rusty nail high in iron?

Uncle Sam Marries "Anti" GMO' How?

Uncle Sam Marries "Anti" GMO--
What will it take?

I had some powerful inspirations this morning. There haven't been many in the last months.



 

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