Day 2 water fast 4th time

Date:   5/6/2014 9:45:35 AM ( 10 y ago)

Woke up 7am. Weighed in this morning at 138.2lbs 32.6% Body fat. Slept relatively well last night but interesting dreams continue. I am typically not much of a dreamer but all the naps and night time sleeping yesterday was full of vivid dreams. Last night closer to midnight I felt some hunger pains and a mild headache. A sip of water and straight to bed fixed all that. I am feeling just fine this morning although I could just go back to sleep right now. I will continue to take it easy since Day 1-3 are usually the roughest.

9pm
I survived cooking tacos dinner. Most of the time I feel okay doing it but there are moments I'm salivating from my senses being bombarded with sights and smells of eating goodness. I had a bottle of plane mineral water next to me to sip along while I cooked and assembled the tacos.
I went for a short walk and felt pretty tired after. I went out with my husband and on the drive home he was munching on Doritos ranch flavor. Ohhhh I had to wrestle with my thoughts. There was a part of me that just wanted to eat some but I resisted. I wasn't gonna go out that way. I thought about how I would feel after. A brief moment of satisfaction but dealing with the guilt and frustration after was just not something I was willing to accept.

Whew this was a challenging day not dealing with the detox symptoms or physical hunger but the whole mental/psychological/emotional aspect was a biggie. Also, for some reason I kept thinking I was on Day 3 but then I quickly realize I'm on 2 and it would mess with my head even more. What the heck! This fast is taking so long. I should just quit now. Why am I torturing myself. The mind games are crazy. I remember the first few times I started doing the master cleanse. The mental and emotional battles were ridiculous. But as I became more experienced there was definitely less drama. Perhaps it came with the confidence that I've done this before, lets not make a big issue about it. Now, I am experiencing that same newbie internal conflict. I am spending much time resisting the fast. I feel a strong sense of deprivation. But as I mentioned before this was going to be different. Instead of feeling deprived with all this restraint, I changed my inner dialogue. I reminded myself, I'm not doing this against my will. There is no need to resist. I want to do this and remembered all the good reasons to do it. Food will ALWAYS ALWAYS be there. I'm not missing out on anything. But my health is really the top reason why I am doing this. I focused on comforting thoughts and telling myself I am feeling good. My body is dedicating every bit of energy into healing. This is the quickest and most effective way to heal. I also wanted to lose weight to get to the bottom of my BMI healthy range. I have joint issues and more specifically the last 2-3 years my right hip has kept me from being active in the gym. A lighter load is less stress on the joints for sure.

One more thing to note I had some right forearm cramping. I was on the laptop and I think the continuous muscle contraction with the right hand caused it. I rubbed some magnesium oil and arnica oil and it resolved within the hour.

I survived another day!!!

 

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