Challenging my fear and winning

Date:   4/21/2014 3:49:06 AM ( 10 y ago)

Challenging my fear and winning

It is 1:32 PM Monday, April 21, 2014.

I just woke up from a long nap. I challenged my fear. I successfully went up to the Passover Retreat. The retreat was on Angeles crest Highway an elevation of 5300 feet. I wasn't sure if my 68 the W van could make it up to that elevation or come down.

Is my nature to challenge my fears. I'm glad that I did.

I gained a lot from going and successfully returning.

I had quite the resurrection and also quite a fall at the Passover retreat.

I have the opportunity to teach children.

This was extremely well received. The teaching I did Quemazon answer to a Greatmeade to heal family relationships at the retreat.

The work I did with the kids it's called brilliant by one person. Everyone who commented was deeply moved by this work I did with the kids.

I had an extreme muscle pull on my left side grind Friday morning at the Passover retreat. The grind call was very shocking to me. It brought up other concerns that I would be able to drive my 60 DW van with the clutch down from the heights of Angeles crest Highway.

Aminoactiv, the natural anti-inflammatory I take, and Arnica Montana 30 see, available from whole food market, where again my remedies of choice for healing the groin pull..

It would have been good to stay a bit longer to gather feedback from the work I did at the Passover retreat, however, I received great healing and wanted to share this with Nadine. I felt it was important to go to the and Easter Gathering at her mothers house.

It was not possible to reach Nadine while I was at the Passover retreat. Gathering had a family campground off Angeles crest Highway, was out of cell phone range.

I spent a lot of time in the month before the gathering in bed with either bronchial or cold like conditions. These were very discouraging.

I felt like I will post it taking great risks in going up the mountain. The weather was a factor.

We were amazingly blessed with calm weather.

The nights were quiet with no wind.

One of the only times that wind appeared to ruffle the tent was when I began a passionate expression of emotion during one of the times that I spoke Saturday morning.

I wanted to be with Nadine for numbers of reasons. An added glitch was that when I called her she let me know that a severe cold that Saturday. This put me on alert. I felt I was going in another situation where I would be exposed to a cold.

She was very loving and went out of her way to get food for me that I could eat. I hadn't taken a shower for days and took one and her mother's apartment. I began feeling the influence of Nadine's cold soon after contact with her.

I loaded up on my remedies including Oscelot.

I'm glad that I stayed long enough to get to know some of her relatives.

When I woke up just now early Monday morning I saw I need to go through the videos I made with Shoshana Wheeler. These videos made Sunday morning addressed part of the correction needed at home.

We need to begin to practice Council as well as non-violent communication here at home. This was one of my big takeaways from the Passover retreat.

Our Seder began Friday evening. Most of our Friday was spent in community building activities. These included resurrecting a tent for the Seder and the making of handmade matzo and other things that we would use during the Seder as of the rituals to eat.

The quality of interaction between the members of the community and what they said and our group process is not something that I can write about without breaking: Confidentiality.

I can only say from my point of view today I received tremendous good and healing through being in this highly loving intelligent atmosphere.

The atmosphere of community that we created is a good starting point for healing Jewish indigenous roots.

I normally am able to sustain my healing feelings through taking images. This photograph process is also not something encouraged at this yearly gathering. Is it okay to take photographs when the community is outside the council sessions on sacred ceremony. I did not feel inspired to take too many photos because of my health condition.

I'm still deeply under the influence of this highly charged he'll he atmosphere created by those who attended.

I do feel somewhat free to speak about my own feelings. The main Takeaway was my sense that however difficult it may be, the survival of my home community depends on up leveling a council listening process at home as well as learning nonviolent communication processes.

Shoshana Wheeler, one of the attendees, willingly said that she will assist me at home in helping us learn this council process and other skills needed for group groups live together.

The Enchanted Garden MOBILE is filled with my settings.

I came home, leaving all my baskets bedding and food in the van.

Nadine came home and her own vehicle after visiting her grandmother.

I want to maintain a healthy mental attitude now after receiving so much good from the weekend.

I will continue this in the morning. It's now 2:15 AM April 21. It is still Passover.







 

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