My daily journey toward a healthier lifestyle, a happier life and finding peace in my own world.

Date:   2/3/2014 6:34:59 PM ( 10 y ago)

February 2, 2014

“A little Madness in the Spring Is wholesome even for the King.” ~Emily Dickinson

Yeah, I didn't go see Buckeye Chuck not see his shadow. And I didn't go to church either. But I did listen to the local radio station pull the little groundhog out and announce what he didn't see. It was pretty cool. I guess there were only about 50 people there. I guess I could have went and not felt too crowded around people. I thought there was going to be more people then that. But then again, everyone else probably though that too. I am not surprised that Spring is on it way, as it was lightly snowing when they brought the groundhog out. I hope so! I really can't wait until Spring.

So I listened to the Christian songs playing on the radio until it went off at 7:00 a.m. And then went back to bed.

The day was simple and sweet (at least for a while). I spend most of the day reading and relaxing. I spend most of the early part of the day reading “Gods of Mars” by Edgar Rice Burroughs. I was almost disappointed when I finished it and didn't have the next novel to read, as it was that good! So I went thought my list of books that I had started but not finished and pulled one down, to start on that. I decided to finish up on Peter and the Secret of Rundoon by Dave Barry and Ridley Pearson. I am surprised that I hadn't finish this book any sooner, as I love anything regarding Peter Pan. So I dove into this book with no problem. I should finish it up by Wednesday if I am lucky. As well as once I pick up my other book from the office, I might be able to finish that this week as well.

I snacked on two bags of microwaved butter popcorn (as I forgot that I had it) in order to hold off a lot of hunger as I had only cans of soup left for the day (and soup doesn't always fill you up like other things) It was nice to snack and read a bit. I think I would rather have cucumber slices or baby carrots, but I can't be choosey when I don't have the money to purchase that stuff right now.

I took a couple naps with Mekong curled up beside me, between reading my book. It was a lovely, quiet day. It was nice. I even chatted with my cousin, C., on Facebook. She had complained about her friend of 7 years not talking to her. I told her that sometimes friendships are like that. She then complained she did so much for her and she didn't understand why she was helping her. I then told her that not all friends return the favor with it comes to helping or being supportive. My cousin then said something about her father (my uncle) saying Snitches get stitches. I then tried to re-direct her and say that her father (my Uncle) always focused on the big things in life and not so much on the little things, like terrible friends. I was shocked when she told me I didn't know her father, and to have another drink and then just to “F” off. I then told her that “Yes, I did know your father, and I do know he lived big and enjoyed life in a manner that he didn't let little things get him down. I told her if she didn't like what I said that was fine, but I wasn't drinking. And that I wasn't backing down, just because she felt I was wrong. I told her I would leave me alone and I wouldn't try to be supportive again. It was then I realized she had been drinking, as she has a drinking problem. But it got out of hand when she posted a threatening meme on my Facebook page on how she was going to f*** me up. Now, C. is about 8 year older then I am so I am was shocked that she would be so immature, as well as threaten me like that. So I just automatically blocked her. I have known for a while she likes to cause and start drama, so I should have known better, but it couldn't be helped. I probably shouldn't said anything to her. I have seen how she has jumped on her friends in the past for posting something nice on her threads. Those friends as well have been as confused or shocked as I was. So as I said, I should have known better. I just blocked her. I won't allow anyone else start drama like that in my life, and family is not different when it comes to Facebook. I don't need that type of atmosphere in my life. I have cut out other “drama queens” in my life, and one of them was my other cousin. I just don't need that in my life when I am trying to better myself.

My life isn't perfect, but I know that I don't need the negativity nor the drama that C. was bring to me. I was trying to be helpful, and if she wanted to attack me like that, then she loses my friend. I don't allow people to talk to me like that. It isn't healthy. I have my own mental issues with low self esteem to allow someone to make me fell like I am doing wrong or I feel threatened for just being me. It wasn't like I said something like she was worthless or her father was an alcoholic (which he was and so isn't she) But just trying to get her to focus on the friends that do hang out with her and care about her. Not the ones that doesn't spend time with her.

Anyway. I lost connection with a cousin. I wasn't too close to her, but close enough that I do feel bad about it.

I had great laughs later with the Cowboy. I spend a couple hours reading a book and the he texted me and told me that he was going to debate and what he was going to post. We are both part of several debate pages since the one major one we both liked went down back in October. We both have struggled with finding one that would capture and create what it was like in the AD page. But D. has lately been playing with the more serious debates by posting silly stuff. Now, don't get me wrong. D. can debate for hours regarding global warming vs. global cooling intelligently, but sometimes his silly/funny memes just getting people relied up to the point some people just get silly with it or debate on how stupid he is.

He had 3 debates going on, and I was just howling at times, as some of the responses of some people. I don't think I have laugh so much in a couple hours as I did then. It was lovely that I told D. it was lovely to laugh so much. I am almost hoping that he will do it again, as I enjoyed it so much. There was a period of time, where he would make me laugh so much when we were first getting to know each other. I miss those times. I miss the intelligent jokes/the silly dry wit (like Monty Python) that he has that I just LOVE. It is nice to laugh. I think I was kind of making Mekong mad, as she was laying beside me when I would bust out laughing and disturb her rest/sleep. She isn't used to me laughing like that or being that happy. It was funny even watching her look at me funny. LOL.

Laughter and a little bit of chocolate helps with chasing depression away. I found my chocolate orange that I bought after Christmas and forgot about. I thought about just throwing it out, but I thought, “Hey, I earned eating just a little as I have been doing really good with eating healthy” so I broke it and ate 7 piece. The serving size was 5 pieces (about 220 calories!) but I ate 7 instead. It was very filling after that last piece and it settled, I realized that maybe 5 was enough as it made me feel just a little bit nauseous, as I am not used to that much chocolate. I guess that will teach me to follow the rules. Anyway, it was delicious and I don't regret giving myself a little something for the hard work of keeping on the straight and narrow with eating right, exercising a little and keeping with a couple of my goals.

I guess that is what a reward is all about, right? Reward one's self for accomplishing something. I didn't plan in giving myself a reward, it finding the chocolate orange wasn't planned at all. I forgot about it and I found it tucked in my overnight bag that I hadn't really fully unpacked since January 4th since I saw D. I always keep certain things in there, so it was semi full. And I looked in there to see if I could find my other chunky hair band for my hair, and I found the chocolate orange in the wrapped up grocery bag that I had it in. I probably wouldn't have noticed it until I was going to pack to see D. again, which I have no idea when that will be since the weather still isn't the greatest.

Well, I lucked out both in laughter and chocolate on Sunday! I think those two things are what I really need to make the day really special.


The Things that I accomplished already today are:

February 2, 2014

√ Make my bed
√ Feed, love and snuggle with my kitties
√ Read A lot
√ Check my pipes
√ Work on my Budget


The Things I want to accomplish before I go to bed:

February 2, 2014

Call my Dad
Pick up Trash
Wash some clothing
Read more (Finish a book)




WEEKLY GOAL FOR FEBRUARY 2nd 2014 – FEBRUARY 8th, 2014

LEARN NUMBES IN FRENCH: I found my French book to start my numbers on. I might have to download that application on my phone to help me with the pronunciation as the book I got didn't come with the learning CD with it (as it was a used book). I have learned some of my numbers before, but I didn't keep up with it to remember. So this week shouldn't be too bad for me. I just need to take the time to do it.

WRITE IN JOURNAL: I wrote a little bit in my notebook but it wasn't a total 3 pages. At least it is something. Something is better then nothing.

FIND GARDENING NOTEBOOK: I looked a couple places I thought it might be, but I didn't find it. I really have no idea where I would have put it when I gave up on gardening last year out of frustration. I will keep searching.

TAKE PICTURES OF BICKLE (2): This might be fun. I want to take pictures of him in different pictures other then just at home. I might take him to my Historical meeting tomorrow. That could be fun and encouraging to my creativity.

CROCHET/KNIT: Nope, I having worked on this yet. I am working toward it though.

FINISH A BOOK: YES. I finish the Gods of Mars by Edgar Rice Burroughs. I have to say that I really enjoyed reading it. I have heard other people say that his stories are very dry and boring. I didn't find the first one (The Princess of Mars) boring at all. I really loved this one. I will have to find copies of others for my Nook so I can read them as well. Right now, I have to work on finishing the books that I have started and NOT finished. Those first and then starting newer books to read.

READ BIBLE: No. I haven't started this yet.

MAKING VALENTINES FOR S. & A.: I have a couple ideas on what I am going to do. I found my glue stick that I will be using. Now, just need to get motivated on cutting and pasting on some paper. This might be very fun for me. I want to have them done this week so I can mail them out next week for them. I think they will like them.

WATER FAST: My water fast will start tomorrow. I am a little excited as I hope to get farther then I did last time (only 5 days). I think detoxification might be easier on me, as I have been eating better then I have in the past. I probably will still have detoxification, but maybe not as strong as it would be if I hadn't be prepared for this water fast. I have been eating foods with fresh veggies (even on my subs) when I am able, even if my money is tight for groceries. I will just have to see how well I do.

TUNE GUITAR: I don't have a guitar tuner, as D. has mine still. I am thinking on seeing if I can download an application on my phone for this. I don't have the room on my phone, I might have to hold off on this until I can get my tuner back from the Cowboy. He said he found it but he didn't know where he placed it the last time I saw him.

WRITE 1,000 WORDS ON MY NOVEL: I haven't started on this yet. But I will start with a new 1,000 words tomorrow, at the latest.

WRITE ROUGHT DRAFT OF BICKLE STORY: I haven't worked any further on this goal, but I will work on it probably tomorrow night if I don't get too busy with doing other things. So many goals and so little time.



MY FOOD LOG FOR: February 2, 2014

BREAKFAST: None

DRINK: Rest of 44 ounces of Brisk Raspberry Ice Tea from yesterday (approximately 20 ounces)

SNACK: (About 10:45 a.m.) A bag of microwaved butter popcorn (whole thing)

DRINK: Water

LUNCH: (About 12:00 p.m.) Bowl of Campbell's Chunky Cheese and Bacon Potato soup (The whole can).

SNACK: (About 2:00 p.m.) A bag of microwaved butter popcorn (whole thing)

DINNER: (About 4:00 p.m.) Bowl of Campbell's Chunk Beefy noodle with vegetable soup (The whole can).

SNACK: (About 7 p.m) 7 slices of Orange flavor milk chocolate (My chocolate orange I got after Christmas, that I forgot about)




DAILY MORALE: Disappointed/Happy

POSITIVE THING: Debating with D. and laughing so much.

EXERICISE: Walking, 0.40 miles, 20 Squats

WATER INTAKE: Approximately 20 ounces

WEIGHT: 144 pounds


INITIAL STARTING WEIGHT: 147 pounds (1/20/14 -1/24/14 (5 days))








 

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