Why I am putting UP a Christmas tree in January by ciaren .....

Salt Water Flush details, learning how I like to work, Christmas tree for inspiration to sort out friend connections, goalsetting issues

Date:   1/10/2014 6:47:38 PM ( 10 y ago)

End of day 3 today is my test in using this blog to make myself accountable to readers. I didn't expect readers, but there seem to be a few. ok, so today I feel I let myself down. Trying not to judge, but its also neccessary to have standards surely, I wonder where the line is.

A breakthrough observation from today is:

I like to do things slowly.

When I don't allow time to do them, it becomes grudging work I avoid, and the detail goes undone.

So the kitchen and bathrooms floors took 2 hours, but it was thoroughly done, including the kitchen edges, walls and hard-to-reach areas.

And for once I took breaks, just five minutes, and made the long floor-drying break a study break.

And at least I got out of bed, in fact there was no fear of getting out of bed today, which I must remember is progress. Slow progress is progress. If I do things slowly but steadily, they will get done.

Today I did the salt water flush for the first time. I know its day 3, but I also know my bowels have only just slowed down from the liver cleanse and frankly I won't be doing the SWF every day because if I reach the limits of my tolerance with it I will stop the cleanse early. Drinking the salt water was easy, compared to my memory of it, and it was a fast, painless passage through my system over about 90 minutes.

I have previously found the SWF didn't always work, so to get good results, I fully hydrate myself in the morning - often 2 pints of water - and then start the SWF as soon as I empty my bladder. That way my system doesn't need the water coming in and it can pass straight through. I also slightly increase the salk to 2.5tsp - to make sure I have put enough in. And to get it down I mix and down a strong salt solution and then follow with plain water until I have downed 32oz.

Enjoyed lingering over food preparation for a change. I like to cook, don't need to eat as long as someone does. But having said that, actually I came off the wagon and had some spoonfuls of the broth I was making. This may put me back, but I am choosing to see it as negligable and to continue regardless. 0verall, this process is helping me take steps toward accomplishing.... something. I am considering setting goals, but wary of the drama, fear of failure and demotivation. For now I am just working through day to day goals without concern for long term effects.

0ne of those goals is achieved by the Christmas tree. Every year I have a tree, on which I put shiny balls with the names of my friends painted on in gold. This way my friends are present in my thoughts.

I didn't do this last year. And missed the cycle, so since I want to work through some things with old friends, renew contacts or break them, and give some news of myself, the tree is going up so I can take down the balls one by one and write to the friend, or just send good wishes.

It's taking time, but I like doing things slowly. And that's ok.

Read an inspiring blog from someone else today, including the phrase

"If no one else believes you can do it, then you must do it."

Think will write that in big letters somewhere.


Note,
Here's what I accomplished today (you can skip the list below - its just my relationship with my to do list)
thoroughly bleached and cleaned kitchen floor and lower walls - the areas hard to get at
and the bathroom and toilet floors too
put away things waiting to go to attic
got out Christmas decorations (from attic)
cleaned out spice box, refilled herb and spice bottles
made roast parsnip and game soup for Eleni-who-lives-here
read another chapter of study book
did 40 minute chakra meditation

Holistically speaking, there is progress here - sorting out my home means sorting out me. I notice I hate starting jobs because inevitably something cannot be done because the next thing it needs is undone.

Doing the little jobs should progress this.

The big job, admitting to being an effective healer, is a subject I'm strategically avoiding.






 

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