High stress the last few days brought on intense nerve pain on my right jaw area in a number of places. The incident has me putting aside deadlines this morning are reviewing what caused this stress.

Date:   7/19/2013 10:54:04 AM ( 11 y ago)

The patient is resting comfortably


It is 8:38 am Friday july 19, 2013. I have no pain, this is a blessing and a curse. Withoutt pain, i have more choices, and not all my choices now are goiod for me.

Last night i had extreme pain. The pain was so bad it was easy to decide that i could not go to the national heirloom expo.; but this morning with no pain, i am looking at my next options. Some of these include is ir possible to leave to door open to find a way to go?

I am pretty sure the pain i had lastl night and for many hours during the nighr was caused by stress.

Here is a list of some of the things that were bothering me:

9:03 am

i am on the laptop now in bed.

I am stilling hunting for miracles.

i want to escape to the email and check if message came through from an important person in my life whose Yes on me always has immense meaning. that year she was implicated in a miracle and blessing.

on the way...

9:13 am

I so deeply want to escape this life as ut is now. Very dofficult things that i have difficuly dealing with surround me. They are all hard to deal with and make me want to avoid them.

There is one person out of touch. Who helps with taxes.

No cLl back. Is he our of town?

The desdline. The deadline todsy. The paperwork.

I need to turn it in. Natalie is waiting on me.

Nut if i turm it in, that its me ro go; there are so many unanswered detaila.

I do mot know if i have it in me me to find ways to do those details.

To mot go is to admit to my human limits. My human lits are immense.

I woulduch rather me your enchanted gardener.

Call ed and lee. Lee, such a grest help friend sll these years.


9:59 am

One email to Lee bounced.

9:59 am

Missed pool session this morning.


9:59 am

What ideas in my head! to admit to be being human--this human--is to admit to being defeated.

10:00 am

There is a swelling on my right cheek above the jaw line.

This is where the nerve pain was coming from yesterday. First here, then it subsided. Then, it came from an area on the right behind the last tooth along the tooth line. I touched it. It was inflamed and sent out pain for hours .late into the night. My final treatment was with castor oil and some of Eyton's healing clay. I woke up with no pain finally in the morning. I was surprised.

I treated with AminoActiv--more than nine to eleven pills through the night, camomilla homeopathy and arnica montana.

Feels good to have the fingers moving and mind entrained.

10:04 am

What next?

Ed...? O.K. call him again. Is it back in town?

10:04 am

touch base with Natalie...
and Paul Wallace...

I do not want to admit to defeat.
It is still Mercury retrograde.

Is there no way out of this prison where I live surrounded my materials of genius enwrapped with other papers. The shelf I am looking at feels like a tomb.

10:06 am

hunger.

I did not eat much yesterday.

Can I eat without pain?

10:06 am

Call dentist and schedule an immediate visit to check out swellings.

His opinion.

I do not like going there.

11:16 am

July 19, 2013
11:16 am


I talked to Lurrae. Her new book is coming out on Feng Shui, I want to write something for the cover. She is a tremendous listener. She has been with me in some of high moments and coached me through some of my low moments.

She is advising me to not be so hard on myself now.

That my work is in my body and here.

11:18 am

I am going to call Paul at the NHE and ask what he suggests.

Would it be O.K. if It urn in the paperwork now, and if I cannot do the show in a couple weeks? I would like to keep moving things along, and bet on being better.

I know I have to deal with things around the house.

11:19 am

That was good. Lee called me back. He is mainland. He is a reassurrance to my soul. I did make some progress with my taxes from last year. It would be good to get this behind me.



11:20 am

Called Paul. Should I turn in the paper work and keep proceeding.
I left him a message about the stress I felt last night.

Call Natalie there.


LAST YEAR AT THE NATIONAL HEIRLOOM EXPO--LESLIE GOLDMAN
ONLINE PAGE

http://www.theheirloomexpo.com/speaker/leslie-goldman/


oral surgeon--
german trujillo
619.297.3275

4:30 pm
monday

spoke to Pablo...suggested....call oral surgeon for panorama exray.

he made an appointment for Monday. It was already on my calendar for Monday.

11:52:

Left message for Paul.

turn in paperwork and send it with note....

write a note...about my current state....

22:56 am

Look up banking...

communicate about stresses...to those who need to hear about them.

Call Sanda...

check banking...

do what I need to do today and care for myself.

6:11pm

On the iphone again

Finished the paperwork for expo.

I started a couple new blogs on plant your dream net.

One is what i would teach;

The other. Links to national heirloom expo:


Prepared to email it, but did not.

How would i get my pizza box up there if i take the plane?


Ariellashira called wheny energy was down.

My will to live is hidden from me.

5:40.

Wow!

Check to go on trip arrived from Frey.

How wonderful! Someone.believes in me. I don't
Now.

Sitting at bank. I have not gardened in a long time.




 

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