Unscrambling My Head from 16 days of Kidney Stone Pain by YourEnchantedGardener .....
Unscrambling My Head from 16 days of Kidney Stone Pain
Date: 7/17/2013 11:45:07 PM ( 11 y ago)
What a Trip!
I just spend about three hours unscrambling a bit of my head
in preparation for a potential journey to the 3rd Annual National Heirloom Expo, September 10-11-12, 2013.
I am scheduled to teach and do some kid activities.
I do not have a clue how I am going to piece this trip together.
It falls right in between the Ten Days of Awe, The beginning of the New Year and Day of Atonement on the Jewish Calendar.
The logistics of piecing together my Calendar is dicey.
Last year I drove up with Nadine, my partner.
Looking at the photos from last year underscores how powerful the contribution she made.
Filling out the paperwork
I promised I would turn in the paperwork today to Natalie from the show.
I got help this morning from Lurrae, editing my words.
then, I went to the therapy pool after working most of the day yesterday
at the computer. That has got to be a no-no if I am going to become a Wellness Warrior.
I have tingles in my feet right now.
That does not inspire the thought that I can drive the EG Mobile on a 1600 mile journey.
I spent time looking at other options today. Plane? Motel cost?
I have one outstanding possible contribution that would make this trip workable.
I have a budget of $1100.00 and if I take Morea to help drive I have promised her $500.00.
I also want to go to the Frey Vineyard.
I need a break from home.
I need a vacation from all the pain and headspace I have been in lately that includes 16 days on narcotic drug killers for kidney stone pain, and a medical procedure that was very disempowering.
THE PAPERWORK
The paperwork is a commitment, an agreement to teach.
I got to the bottom of the page where it says that.
I had to stop.
I do not know how I am going to make this trip.
Then I started to blog ....
I got in through inspiration.
I found a photo of Eileen Wallace. I put it up.
Next thing I knew I could see a pattern of something that started to come
together related to my kid activities at the National Heirloom Expo.
My head is scrambled
I also suspected today that it could possibly be Mercury Retrograde.
Knock. Knock, an inner voice said look it up.
It has been Mercury Retrograde since three days before my Kidney Stone
started to hurt. It does not end till July 20. It is July 17 now.
To DO
Close out the iphoto library after writing up the kid words.
open up the Caravan Library...and find the originals of my photos
for that email. Which is it?
I need intervention from Angels tonight, and for a sponsor to come through.
I need to go from down to Up to pull this off.
I have a very bad sense that not doing it would be like the end of a cycle,
or could I take a year off from this show without hurting my confidence too much.
I need to straighten out my head.
I do not have energy for anything big right now.
Have some compassion on myself. Yes.
9:43 pm
July 17, 2013
The good work I did this evening is here:
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=2084653
CAN I GET BACK TO THIS HEAD SPACE????
Paul Wallace and Leslie Petaluma Seed bank, 2012, Sept 6.
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