Leslie, that's me, being wheeled out after Kidney Stone Procedure, Alvarado Hospital July 3. That's the EG Mobile, my Fearless 68 VW Van behind me. Do I dare drive her up to the 3rd Annual National Heirloom Expo? Who will drive with me? Is there a better way to go?
How do I get up from being down?
This Plant Your Dream Blog began with this question....How do I get up from being down?
How do I get up form being down after my recent health crisis with kidney stones that began with the Big full moon June 22 and started to come to peace on July 10 when a stent and a string coming out of my body was removed seven days after an medical procedure.
There was no incision to get that stent in. They put in in through my front opening. It felt during that time it was in that Western Medicine had strings attached to me.
This was one of the longest and most difficult bouts I have had with Western Narcotics called Vicodin and Percoset. Both these Narcotics gave me allergic reactions. They helped me mask over severe pain and I am grateful for this. The pain was intense and immense. The experience with the drugs themselves was disempowering and stress making.
I could not figure out how to make them work for me. Every time I thought I was controlling the pain, the drug would twist my head around. Sometimes the Vicodin would alleviate the pain for two hours, sometimes for six. Sometimes, I would have to take double doses. I can easily see how many people become narcotic dependent.
Lifestyle Shifts
One thing has come home to me. I know how to make Kidney Stones. There are things I am doing in my lifestyle that are not working for me.
These are a few things that are being pointed out to me: I sit too much. The joy and fulfillment I have blogging and doing work sitting at the computer has a high price. There are articles on the web about how sitting is the new smoking.
How do I get to the National Heirloom Expo September 10,11,12?
How fast can a dream grow? As fast as a Blade of Grass Become intimate with ancient grains and indigenous seeds through growing them, and your deepest dreams, that seem impossible now, will become visible. This now, is my personal quest that I speak with emotions welling up in me, spoken from a place where I feel defeat, and need to look up again toward the fields and harvest that is now ripe
I have based my life on challenging myself to go behind fears. I have challenged myself to do things that I imagined impossible. Friday, I affirmed with the creators of the National Heirloom Expo my intention to be at this event that represents a holy gathering of Seed Wisdom, and Seed Wisdom Keepers.
Last year, I had the support of Nadine, my partner. We drove the EG Mobile up from San Diego. It seems like a daring feat to ask this 68 VW Van to make that journey. This year, Nadine may not be available, and I question driving myself and risking my resources at a time when my reserves, both energetic, and potentially financial, are in need of being shored up.
At the Kroc Therapy Pool
My niece Eva and Nadine have both been asking me to go to the therapy pool at the nearby Kroc Center. Yesterday, I woke up with the thought that I would go.
Nadine came with me. She was very happy in the water and very supportive. It made her happy that I was in the water. At a certain point she left me there alone to go take her daughter to lunch.
I spent much of my head space perseverating about getting to the National Heirloom Expo. I did my best to move my legs.
I started to see a laundry list of departmentalized imcompletes over two years that feel devastating.
This year, every single outing I took has felt like an uphill climb from early March to Early June.
There were many times I did not see how I was going to get where I thought I had to be. I got there with stress adding to the mix. There were numbers of events that I questioned how I would get there.
Somehow, once I got there, my energy would transform.
My relationship to my room and bedroom is Self Defeating
Part of the shift is getting away from the house.
My relationship to the house where I live with others and to my room--my bedroom and office--is defeating.
This morning I cleared a few things off my desk. I have a difficult time keeping my desk clear.
How can a person who cannot even keep a desk clear, imagine he can take on such a journey to the National Heirloom Expo?
Relationships around the house
Relationships around the house are also energy draining.
Living with a handful of other people on 1/3 acre is difficult. It always has
been difficult for me.
I am feeling like the vision I have carried and has carried me for many years is gone in this moment. It is replaced by sounds of housemates in my immediate environment walking up stairs and coming down stairs. Each sound is draws me.
There is a laundry list of conditions on the property that point out, I, and we as a group, are not on top of the challenge of living sustainably where nature grows daily.
I have been sitting already for 30 minutes. I am starting to feel a discomfort in my right back in the area where the kidney stone was removed.
Alert, Goldman.
The Ancient Wheat I grew seems very important and a key to my Recovery, both personally, and symbolically for the world.
My most recent success has been growing ancient wheat from KAMUT® Khorasan seeds.
That in itself, to bring these Khorasan seeds to the National Heirloom Expo, would be an achievement, and confidence building. It would be a simple act of Rekindling of Faith in my ability to do something.
The Stands of wheat at Rancho La Puerta and Pachamama Fair Trade
Salvador, old friend and head farmer at the growing grounds for Rancho La Puerta, May 2013.
The stands of wheat that are growing in the food garden of Rancho La Puerta in Tecate, Mexico, and nearby Pachamama Fair Trade are also significant. They represent a dream I had to bring ancient wheat to Mexico.
They are the opposite of the experience I had with the Western Surgeon who attached the string to me.
I took viable fertile seeds to Mexico and had a vision that I was able to carry out. When I returned to both these places in May, I saw the fruits of my vision growing.
I was able finally to communicate, at least put out emails, to Salvador, the main growing at Rancho La Puerta's farm, and to Sergio Constantino about the status of the wheat I saw growing. The small living Khorasan wheat that is left in my Tower Garden and in Wine Barrels is also ready for harvest, it appears.
I have already shown that a few of these grains are fertile to the next generation. I have shown success in bringing the KAMUT®, Khorasan wheat, a standard of quality to become a new seed.
I need to do something very simple now.
The highest thing I can see spiritually is succeeding in carrying these seeds
to the National Heirloom Expo.
I won a blue ribbon--a first place ribbon--a few weeks before the Kidney Stone experience started.
So how to I regain my confidence?
Last night, I wrote this:
9:25 pm
Saturday
on my iPhone"
Perseverating. I do not feel i have what it takes to meet the challenges or opportunities of my life now.
The jaw pain i was having a few months ago feels like it is coming back.
The list of incompletes is immense, accumulated over a number of years.
The year has been an uphill climb. i have nothing more to give now.
I win through challenging myself. I feel i have nothing to back up what i want to do.
Oh Ancient Wheat!
Speak to me again now.
Teach me and give me the strength to do the Right Thing now
to honor my body and my limits.
Allow me to continue to serve you, and through you, my Soul.
Help me keep my soul, mind, and body all of One Piece.
Help me Preserve my Life and come up from feeling down.
WHEAT IS HERE TO HAUNT AND INSPIRE US
http://curezone.org/blogs/fm.asp?i=2075749
NATIONAL HEIRLOOM EXPO PREPARATION
Take Your Sacred Seed Out of The Pizza Box and Plant Your Dream!
Robert Muller, when UN undersecretary Gen gave Leslie Goldman, Your Enchanted Gardener, a UN peace medal for the work he would do in his life. That work is helping us win back our sacred seeds. Join us for an inspired community building gathering as we grind ancient wheat together into flour, take your sacred seeds out of the symbolic pizza box and plant your dream with heirloom seeds. Through these actions we are part of a Campaign to Grow A Healthier Pizza that will return food reform to America and give us the FDA and USDA as originally intended.
Bio note:
Leslie Goldman. Un peace medal recipient, inspires food reform in America. Through his Plant Your Dream Blog and book Grow A Heslthier Pizza, he reveals his own journey that encourages us each to win back our sacred Seeds. He asks:
Take Your sacred seed out of the symbolic pizza box and plant your dream. Exercise your birthright to Know Food through Growing Food.
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=2082881
HOW I WAS GIVEN A U.N. PEACE MEDAL FOR THE WORK I WOULD DO IN MY LIFE
From a deep place in his lungs,
Robert Muller said to me,
"Let Us Make Our Entire, Miraculous Planet
into an Enchanted Garden!"
http://lesliegoldman.com/AboutLeslie/id33.htm
LESLIE GOLDMAN AT THE NATIONAL HEIRLOOM EXPO 2012
http://www.theheirloomexpo.com/speaker/leslie-goldman/
KIDNEY PAIN JOURNAL
http://curezone.com/blogs/c/fm.asp?i=2077349
CULTIVATING A GRASSROOTS MOVEMENT
ADD GRAPHIC!!!
and incompletes...
LIFTING ME UP NOW
One of my primary life mentors, Edmond Bordeaux Szekely, honored ancient wheat as our teacher. He said that in watching the grain of wheat, we would learn how to triumph over obstacles. What would such a triumph look like for me now?
Deborah Szekely, Wellness Warrior #1
Deborah Szekely has been a major inspiration for me for decades. She, spiritually, in my inner life, is the Mother of the Modern Essene Movement.
at 90, she began a new movement, called Wellness Warrior. I received this note recently regarding the article I wrote that is in The Life Connection, July issue.
Dear Leslie,
I took advantage of the holiday on 4th of July to read your manuscript that you sent to me on June 20th. As always, you have done a fine job in educating people to participate and take responsibility for their own health.
Hope you are well; keep up the good work. Fondly, Deborah This photo is of Deborah at her 90th Birthday in 2012. She said that 90 was the new 60.
This is Dr. Robert Quinn (r) with Carol Petrina, his friend. Bob introduced me to my friend Ancient Khorasan Wheat that he has preserved under the highest standard with the trademark name KAMUT ® brand.
Please visit the KAMUT INTERNATIONAL SITE to make a friend too of this wonderful wheat, with some gluten in a form that nature intended, a form not manipulated by GMO's. http://www.kamut.com
Leslie Goldman, Your Enchanted Gardener, Some called it the March Against Monsanto, May 28, 2013. For me I was Marching for the Indigenous Seeds and that we would each win back our Sacred Seeds. To Know Food, Grow Food.
In this photo, I am holding indigenous varieties of Ancient corn seeds that are available from my friends at Baker Creek Heirloom Seeds. Order a Baker Creek Catalogue here now for 2014, and Plant Your Dream!
http://www.rareseeds.com/request-catalog/
Katrina Frey, Frey Organic Winery, August 2002
http://www.freywine.com
Patrica Bragg, Bragg Live Food
to add Photo....
Eli Galiano...
Sergio Constantino...will they help me get there...
"Great shots Leslie! Got them all. Thanks for forwarding. We’ll get them posted on the Hemp History Week Facebook page and shared with Stone Brewing. Thanks, Christina Volgyesi, Director of Marketing, Dr. Bronner’s Magic Soaps
Dr. Bronner's Magic Soap-and David Bronner plan to be at the National Heirloom Expo 2013. Visit Dr. Bronner Magic Soap here
http://www.drbronner.com
A LOVE LETTER TO JOE THE FARMER IS ONE OF THE DOCUMENTS I WANT TO READ AT THE NATIONAL HEIRLOOM EXPO 2013
http://curezone.com/ig/i.asp?i=65779
I WILL I GET TO THE NATIONAL HEIRLOOM EXPO?
Who will help me drive? Will it be an ally from Mexico?
This is Sergio Constantno
This is El Galiano...
