Garden Management Journal
Monday, Memorial Day
May 27, 2013
7:08 am


The Pain showed up the evening after the March Against Monsanto San Diego Rally, May 25, 2013. I got some very difficult news from my sweetheart. The pain lasted through the night. I could not tell if it was a toothache or something in my joint between my jaw and my skull.

I have been taking StayActiv repeatedly to get through the intense uphill climb of events that I have been doing.

These included leaving for Los Angeles Wednesday, staying with my Niece Eva at her place, spending the day in the classroom with her at Hami High, and then leaving for home, back to San Diego. I stopped at LL's on the way home and this was a good visit.

I was not happy with my behavior the last few days before leaving. I had a very bad incident at FedEx Print on Tuesday. I needed to get prints made, and generally can could not going in last minute and get some prints made. This time, The man would not print for me. He was backed up.

I paid an arm and a leg to use their computer. this includes paying for the windows computer by the minute. I had some help and the employee delivered me my work. It was the work I needed, the basics.
I continued to print some additional copies, but realized later that in my exhaustion, I left them in the tray of the computer that was behind me. When I called, another employee said he could not find them.

I was angry when I left, and on top of this I backup up into a pole and knocked a hole in the EG Mobile. Then, the next day, Thursday, after visiting my father in the extended care facility, I had another driving incident. I got a call from Rebecca. I answered while driving. I was in a part of town I did not know. The light changed. I was distracted and may have driven through the red light. Then I saw that that intersection was Photo Enforced.

If I am lucky I did not break the law, and luckier if I do not get caught.

Money is not flowing, and these needed repairs could take a lot out of the money I do have.

That was in my energy field while I was in the classroom.

I got home around 11 pm Thursday night. I was using StayActiv to keep going. I was taking as many pills as necessary through the day, but was very tired at different times.

Then, the next day was the Monsanto Rally and events.

Again I was taking StayActiv and Arnica Montana to keep going.

I spoke twice at the Rally, then came home and got stressful news from
my sweetheart that is going to impact her life in a big way.

Then the pain came.

Yesterday, I pushed myself through the Farmers' Market.

I am clear I have to slow down.

I cannot continue to leave at this breakneck speed.

I cannot continue to live making mental errors that are the result of doing too much in too short a period of time.

I am so sorry for the "crimes" I may have committed against my body and the law.

My mnd cannot continue at this pace.

I need to switch gears.

THINGS I WANT TO DO

There are always things I want to do. Today this include a commitment to establish being meticulous with records I have been letting slide since
the beginning of last year. I am tired of dealing with Quicken Essentials and the loss of data due to shifting OS.

I need a solid foundation under my successes. These successes have been many during the first six months of this year. I am happy with what I have achieved. I have reached a new self acceptance as a teacher and have had some outstanding moments being able to inspire others; but the cost has been very expensive to my health and mind.

I am running so fast and using the computer so much, that I have a disorder with attention. This concerns me very much.

Now this pain in the Jaw or tooth.

I am going to switch my attitude and where blinders.

I need to clear my desk and space.

I need to know all is O.K.

I have made some great new connections through the March.

There has been a great response to my photos and the video I put up.

There is great work to do, and good things to do at home that need attention, but I have to put myself again on my plate as a priority.

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May 27, 2013

 

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