garlic cleanse started, relationship hardships with an undiagnosed illness

Date:   5/16/2013 11:06:08 PM ( 11 y ago)

Last night I started eating 2 cloves of raw garlic as I have read and researched the possibilities..and I'm desperate for some easement of symptoms..especially the skin symptoms and the hair loss..I cry, more like sob every time I take a shower..I cannot believe the total devastation to my scalp and skin all over my body. I deal with this "disease" alone..family doesn't want to hear it, husband doesn't want to hear it..and no one, not even I want to see it, but see it I do..every time I get undressed or look in the mirror. Hell, my doctor doesn't even want to see it..no one will care until it starts to happen to them..then they will care, and very much so..and I wonder if I can be as cold as them and tell them I don't want to hear it, or spend my time away from them, doing anything else, letting every and anything else be more important than what they are going through..the physical devastation is bad enough, but the toll it takes on relationships..marriage or family is mentally and physically crushing..a rejection on the highest order. I have come to the conclusion my marriage will never improve, never get better, as he is incapable of being there...he doesn't have the strength for it..and I wonder if I should send him away though it would break my heart to do so, but maybe he could find another happier life away from my all encompassing sadness... I should never have married him..I told him before of course ..even gave him info to read, but he did not..
Garlic cleanse day two...Diarrhea this morning, an over whelming tiredness, and a nausea that will not abate...I feel like I'm dying half the time and wish if I am the end will come quickly and more painlessly than the last two years or more have been. Doxycycline also started yesterday.apparently there is only once company making it now..so the price has jumped from just $4.00 a month to $80.00...very odd that

 

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