INTRO

I am at Stephen Fiske's home in Venice. I have been parked and sleeping in the driveway since Saturday night.

Collected morning thoughts

Collected my spiritual energies by taking time to put some things in order in the EG Mobile. Got inspiration from the Luther Burbank biogragraphy, ' A Gardener
Touched by Genius."

Latest emotions...

Can't find my polishing cloth...and...and the battery charger is missing.

Count I have left it at the Iman Center on Sunday?

should I look for it in the EG Mobile..?

Three things lost now....

This is not good.

Will Upload photos on full disk...

11:27 am
September 25, 2012

God Bless the Whole Being Weekend

Night filled with many thoughts processing events yesterday. I left the Whole Being Weekend feeling embarrassed about my presentation Saturday morning. Each person gives about a minute. I was processing my feelings and this overshadowed the message I needed to say.

The Weekend no longer felt my place.

The main thing I needed to say went unsaid. I was still processing the feelings that there felt like no place for a spiritual elder. I found that much of what I loved about the Whole Being Weekend was gone.


A new generation is in charge, but they are not making room for the spiritual elders.

Later, I wanted to give a Blessing to the younger generation, but did not make the connection.

I feel I once carried the heart and soul of the weekend.

I had great resistance about coming up, but could not place my finger on the reasons until I was on the scene.

The EG Mobile is Hurting

I had to pay a large price, the EG Mobile, the 68 Van that carried me successfully to Santa Rosa and back to San Diego, now has a valve that needs to be fixed.

I felt embarrassed after I left coming down the mountain. This morning I feel ashamed as well. I did not listen to my spiritual signals. I was obsessive. I was pushing.

My spirit told me to take the EG Mobile into the shop with Mike before I went up to the Whole Being Weekend. There was a window of opportunity on Thursday, but Mike was not in town.

I was still in LA when I discovered this. Wednesday, I took the EG Mobile to Layne Westside VW on Lincoln in Venice.

He was too busy to really look at the EG Mobile. I forced my way in for a moment. He checked the oil.

Yesterday, I went back to Layne. There was a throttle cable that needed to be fixed from the trip. There was also a new sound...in the engine that was not normal. The new sound showed up after I came down from the mountain of Idyllwild.

It was a popping sound. Layne discovered the sound too after he fixed the throttle cable. It was a Valve, that likely overheated.

He also discovered a loose fan belt that he replaced.

The fan felt may have been the cause of the problem.

I got Mike on the phone. Mike said the fan belt was in good shape when I left from my trip to the National Heirloom Expo. By time time I came down from the Whole Being Weekend, the fan belt was no longer healthy. Jesus took it off. He was able to crack it in places.

I imagine it needed to be replaced last Thursday. Mike would have likely discovered that.

The EG Mobile had made it successfully up to Santa Rosa and back. That trip was had great intentionality behind it.

I had one vision for the Whole Being Weekend. It was the holding up of the large Prop 37 signage with a group scene behind it.

I will never know for sure now if the EG Mobile could have successfully made it up to the Whole Being Weekend without a problem if it had been checked.

I came home from Santa Rosa with a sense of freedom that she could go anywhere. Now I question if the EG Mobile can go long distances on the road.

What I learned

Check always after a long trip.

I needed to check a few times on the road, would have been best.

Follow my spiritual instinct.

Plans for the week are now shifted

I still feel energy around going to the the Essene Revival this weekend.

It is not clear where I will stay.

I need a place to stay on Friday.

I am aware now that things can get worse if I do not follow my instincts.

There is a part of me that wants to stay in the apartment of my father that is being cleared out. My niece is crying out for help.

I need to regroup

I need to regroup and continue to move forward on the campaign.

The Main Focus Today

To prepare to go up to Yom Kippur at B'nai Horin.

I am tired right now.

I want to learn the system of clean up here for the kitchen at Stephen's where I am staying in Venice.

Do that now.

Would be good to upload the photos from the Weekend.

God forgive me for the errors of my ways.

Leslie, forgive yourself for the mistakes you made.

Essene Revival

Powerful gathering.

I have not heard back from David.

There is no confirmation on this.

have to stay positive.

Some of the great teachers will be there.

would be good to connect.

There is purpose to be there and teach, but I need to confirm my place to stay.

How will I go home?

Layne advised me to drive very carefully home.

I can see getting a tow between LA and San Diego.

the AAA can tow me as part of my premier service.

I am advised not to take the freeway.

I had in mind to stay in LA through Sunday.

Antiques for Sale

My niece needs help selling the remainder of the things in my father's apartment.

Photos of the Fest Fest

I left Saturday afternoon to go the the Peace Fest in Los Angeles.

I felt a calling to be there.

My niece was also calling me to help on Sunday.

I thought I could spend time at the Peace Fest on Sunday.

I participated in an interfaith service Sunday morning event that was powerful

I feel I successfully gave a message about Prop 37 to the Interfaith Ministers.

I set up a table Sunday afternoon.

I learned a lot. I took time to organize my seeds better.

 

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