My daily Journey to a healthier life style

Date:   5/4/2011 3:53:40 PM ( 13 y ago)

May 2, 2011

I woke up very hungry, and that is probably because I haven't been very motivated in making sure that I had food prepared to eat during the various times of the day. I ate the last of my cantaloupe which was getting a little bit soft and squishy. I ate it anyway, as there still isn't a lot of food in my fridge. I haven't went all out in stocking it. I have plenty in my cabinets and freezer, such as beans, brown rice, lentils, barley, frozen shrimp, frozen fruit and veggies so I do have things under control when it comes to having food. I just didn't want to go out and buy a bunch of fresh food and not eat it all and have it go to waste.

The top news of the hour was the death of Osama Bin Laden. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. When I was getting ready for work, I heard it on the radio and I hesitated when I heard it. I couldn't believe it! I was so happy, yet I was curious on why it turned out the way it did. I would have rather seen him come to Court, like the Iraqi people did with Saddam Hussein. I think people go more justice that way, rather then a quick death like Osama got. My heart felt light knowing that the terror and the horror that was caused by one man, was finally dead, even if it took 10 years. I thought the President should have declared a National celebration day because of the news, just as 9/11 has affected us all, then it should have been a day of celebration for those that died and those who suffered losses due to it. It would have been a nice end to all the pain and heartache that has followed us through the years regarding it.

I wasn't prepared with making my lunch, so I went all out and got a veggie salad at Subway. I thought it was the healthiest place I could get a salad, since I can control what I am getting and I can see how fresh the veggies are. I got a veggie salad, which was only $4.99, which is not bad since it was huge and fresh. I got everything but jalapenos and pickles. I got a no fat Italian dressing, but I found out that I had no desire to use it. The salad was Awesome. I loved the spinach, green peppers and cucumbers. I just marvel at how much I love my veggies now. I used to be a major veggie lover when I was a teenager, and now I am back to my first love after so many long years. I know that sounds weird, but it is true. As well as my first love with God as well. It is as I have been re-born again, after all these years and finding all my first loves again. LOL

Work was okay, but I found myself struggling a couple times during the day which had to do with the guy. It wasn't too bad, but still it held a sort of distraction in my head. I had to keep reminding myself to look how he treated me in the past, and that I needed to be a warrior in that area, and take no quarter when it came to be being not okay with it. I think my problem is most of the time, I am too forgiving, and I forgive a lot of time, when I shouldn't. When I forgive, I allow people to walk all over me and destroy my boundaries that I have up. I do wonder a little bit if I would have had stronger boundaries, if we could have worked things out. My mother believes that he was a user before I came along and he is still a user, so nothing I could have done would have made a difference in our lives together. It still is a very sore and sad spot in my heart, nevertheless. I try not to think about even the good times with him, as it makes my heart even more with him. I will be honest though, my heart still yearns for him at times. I do miss him.

I didn't have anything planned after work, which was really odd, since the last couple weeks I have been so loading with things to do. I could have been doing tons of stuff such as cleaning my living room, re-planting my new plants, PLANTING MY SEEDS, etc. which I did not. I didn't even go to the Revival that is planned for all this week. I just went home, and be came a bump on a log. I spend the rest of my evening relaxing in bed and reading my books.

It was really nice to be doing nothing and relaxing. Lately I have been rushing around, doing things that this was a very nice change to what I have been doing. It was lonely, but enjoying, nevertheless. I must learn to be content with what I have and not complain about what I do not have, because it could be much worse. I must remember to count my blessings regardless on what they might be. They are still blessings.

It was a good night for me.

FOOD INTAKE:

BREAKFAST: (8:30 a.m.) last 4 small slices of cantaloupe

DRINK: Oolong Tea (A coffee cup)

SNACK: (around 10:00 a.m.) 2 apple slices

LUNCH: (around 12:45 p.m.) A large vegetable salad (lettuce, spinach, green peppers, black olives, onions, cucumbers, yellow banana peppers

DRINK: Oolong Tea (a coffee cup)

SNACK: (around 3:30 p.m.) Apple slices (bought from subway

DINNER: (around 5:15 p.m.) 1 cup of steamed broccoli, and 2 cups of leafy greens with 8 ounces of 2 % low fat milk (a milk carton from Subway)

SNACK (around 7:15 pm.) 4 Strawberries (last of them -as a couple were going bad and were not edible)

EXERICISE: walked 2.45 Miles,

WATER INTAKE: 24 ounces of water

WEIGHT: 115 pounds



 

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