My daily Journey to a healthier life style

Date:   4/21/2011 4:30:49 PM ( 13 y ago)

April 1, 2011

The rest of my evening was pretty much uneventful other then talking about future plans, in the next couple weeks. I went over to Christy's after work, and hung out for a couple hours.

I got a call from the guy. He didn't talk about my text, but about if I had been calling him the last couple days. I told him “No”. It seems that he had been getting calls from a restricted number, and it sounds like the person it crying, bu the person doesn't say anything. He thought it was me. I told him that I was sad that our relationship was over, but I am not going to call him restricted. If I was going to call, I would want him to know it. I guess this person has called already twice today and it is making him paranoid, because he doesn't know who it is. We talked for a short while. He talked about his dog, and issues regarding money, as he needed to come up with $1500 this week. I have to say that hearing his voice on the phone, made my heart melt a bit, to the point when I got off the phone, I was bummed out. My mind started wondering once again if there was something I could have done to fix things with “us”. It is so hard to let go, especially when I worked so hard to get him back to Ohio, moved stuff out of my home so I had room for him and his son, and I did so much to try and build a better relationship together.

It took a while for me to get out of the emotional funk that I was in. It was hard. I ended up sticking my nose in a book for a while, jut to get my mind of things, because there was so much a part of me wanted to ask him when I spoke to him, yet I didn't. I didn't realize how much hearing his voice would affect him. Sigh.

I really tried to keep my mind focused on Godly things other then how I was feeling about the guy. At times, it can be really hard to do.

I tried to keep my mind on all the things I was going to be doing tomorrow: Pinwheel fun day, Movie- Gnomeo and Juliet, calling my mother and enjoying the day with my best friend and her son. I have so much going for me, that I shouldn't be thinking about the guy. My life is much happier and wonderful now that he isn't in my life, regardless that I miss him (a bit) or not.

I stayed over at Christy's until around 12:30 a.m., once the last movie we were watching was over. I told Christy that I would be over in the morning no later then 11:30 a.m., if not Noon, if I was running late. I told her to be ready, as the Pinwheel day starts at 11:00 a.m. She said she would be ready with Jesse.

When I did get home, I was up for another hour of so, because I have a routine: Shower, loving on my kitties, turning on a movie and reading a bit of a book. It is funny, because it seems that I have so much energy, that only getting 5 hours of sleep seems to be enough for me to run all day. Of course, I get a bit run down, but it is nice to have a day that is full, which keeps me away from home and sinking back into toxic thoughts of the guy and how I miss him. Going over to Christy's is good for me to a point, as it keeps me always in company of something and prevents me from sinking into unhealthy thoughts if I am alone. And when I do get home, I am busy dealing with Mekong and Lammy, that I don't give too much thought.

You can say that I am getting healthier mentally as well, as physically.

EXERICISE: walked 2.50 Miles,

WATER INTAKE: 35 ounces of water

WEIGHT: 117 pounds



 

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