My daily Journey to a healthier life style

Date:   3/14/2011 4:06:01 PM ( 13 y ago)

March 12, 2011

I got up really late. Mekong really took at advantage of it being a sleeping in day. Usually on a weekend, I am up around 10:30 at the latest unless I am not feeling good or I am up really late. I wasn't up really late, but since I went over to Christy's for a while, it was later then my body really like since I have been water fasting. I woke up around 9:30 a.m, went to the bathroom, looked out my window, got myself a bottle of water (16 ounces) and got back into bed. I drank a little bit of water, and went back to sleep. LOL I can't say that I was really tired and expected to go back to sleep, but my body did. I didn't wake up and get out of bed until around 2:00 p.m. And I woke up with Mekong sleeping on me. That is why I said that she really took at advantage of our sleep-in time.


Today's Lenten Focus for March 12, 2011

Clean us up

Read: John 1:47

Today I focus on praying for the hearts of our families and friends to live honest lives and for people in our neighborhood to want to exchange their unclean lives for clean ones.



It made me look at my own life and see where I might be living an unclean life and dishonest life. It is important that I change and become right with God with the little things that mar my personality so.

I have to say that my weekend was very emotional and at times I wondered why I was water fasting, if I was feeling this way about things. My mind and heart flitted from thoughts of Phil and God, as if I was trying to choose which one I wanted in my life. I know that regarding Phil, I really don't have a choice on that one. I believe that there is nothing left of our relationship but memories, which torture me at times. It is a very painful thing to watching someone that you loved die. I have learn to to let go and just have hope that there is something better for me in the future. I guess that is one reason why it was so emotional for me.

I can't say that I am overly lonely, but I would love to share my life with someone. I am a people person and it is painful for me to watch others walk hand in hand, when I would enjoy having that in my life. It has been even hard to go over to Christy's and choke down the view, when her boyfriend, kisses her good bye and hugs on me. I think that it only irritates me because I don't have that in my life and it is only a reminded that I don't.

I guess that makes me very selfish. I guess in many ways I am disappointed that I am single at this age in my life, when I thought, I should have a stable relationship with a future. The whole relationship thing has really got me down, and I am not trying to thinking about it.

My tongue is coated white and I can smell the acetone on my breathe already. I hate it. The last time I fasted for about 14/15 days, I quit because the acetone smell got so bad that I couldn't handle it. I weighed myself and I lost two more pounds, but I know that this is water weight/intestinal weight. I did have a small bowel movement later in the day, which was surprising for me, but I glad that I had it.

I took my blue Nalgene 32 ounce water bottle filled with bottled water, and when over to my best friend's house for while. I took two movies that I rented with me, as she doesn't have cable in her new place. And I thought she would enjoy something else to watch other then watching Night of the Roxbury Fifty million times. Her son loves the movie and over the last couple weeks, I think I have watched it at least 20 times or more.

I didn't stay long, as I got really bored and I needed something to do other then sit and watch TV. I ended up leaving and walking around Walmart, Odd Lots and Good will for a while, until I was feeling really tired. I went home and went straight to bed, as my body was beat.

What else is new? Nothing, but different containers that I am drinking my water in: My blue water bottle, a fancy cup, the original bottle the water is in. You can say that is the only excitement I have at the moment. LOL

EXERICISE: walked 2.70 Miles,

WATER INTAKE: 64 Ounce of water

WEIGHT: 126 pounds




 

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