January 25, 2011

Yesterday was Linda Hill's Birthday.


I left for a personal retreat yesterday,
a few days away from the house perhaps,
but as soon as I got up to Encinitas
and looked around at another person's burdens
it triggered my own.

There was no peace to be found there,
I had a big enough mess of my own at home
and pressing events made me want to return
almost immediately.


A series of burdens have been pressing
me with desires to leave here for a more simple life.
There have been immense stress points.
One of the things that blocks me from leaving here
are hundreds of notebooks, three ring binders,
filled with years of writings and archives.

It would take months to begin clearing this.

The pressure felt so intense yesterday,
that I came home looking for a way to end my life,
but then as I was bringing into the house my things,
right in front of my eyes, one of the main housemates
who has been a daily stress point for months
if not longer and the trigger for intense emotional pain inside me,
collapsed on the entry way to our house.
He was having emotional and physical pain
that was off the richter scale.

Here was a man who for months now was feeling
like my memesis. He was one of the main reasons
I felt I had to leave. He was in a
profound breakdown.

I went over and attempted to comfort him.
He needed help. He thought he needed to go
to the emergency hospital due to an injury.
I began to give him FES Remedies.

I used Magenta Self Healer,
and then Arnica Allay. I also have him
Arnica Montana 30x from Boiron,
and later StayActiv for pain relief.

StayActiv is my anti inflammatory of choice.

In the next hours we began a healing process.
We both said many things that needed to be said.
It brought up recollections of the original bonds
of friendship we had.

...phone ringing!
10:58 am
January 25, 2011


THINGS COULD BE BETTER

I could see things could be better
for the house from what happened
during the next five hours.

Others here joined in on the healing.

I slept in this morning. I saw bullets
of headlines for possible blogs and things
I could write about this morning,
but I elected to stay in bed and accept
the fragility of my humanness.

And now hours later,
after seeing all these positive things
to write about, it is 11 am.

I am feeling the burden again of
so many details I do not want to face,
hours of possible communications
that go with the unwanted job of
managing the income and expenses
that go with living in a small community
of people attempting to live together.

Every time there a vacancy, or a loss of potential income
this becomes something that takes up space in my head.

I so need my own head to be allowed to be free
to roam my own inspirations.
I so need to experience the potential success
that comes when I do the work on the internet
and in 3D that brings me an exchange of
income, feelings of fulfillment and possible joy/

Joy! Joy! What a concept!

I have burdenened my own head
and the head of every loved one I know
with the immense drama--seemingly impossible to
resolve.

Footsteps! Footsteps!
There are the foodsteps of one of numbers of house mates
coming quickly down the stairs.

For them to be free to focus on the
issues of their own life, someone has to
be thinking about this ponderable array of details
to keep this "show" together.

I can hardly focus on the details
there are so very many of what it will take
before I can have my own life back
to deal with my own laundry list of things
I would like to, I need to do.


WHAT FES REMEDY TO TAKE NOW?

What FES remedy to take now?
ILLUMINE--for depression.

Something for a heavy heart.
I think that is called Sacred Heart.

My Heart is so very heavy.

SACRED HEART
Integrating Heart
Strength & Compassion

http://www.fesflowers.com/flourish.htm

in Relationship

TO DO TO BRING ME JOY

Water the side garden.

Every one here needs to share in these
responsibilities. They are too much
for one person to handle.


MIND FULL
FLOURISH REMEDY

Oh I see this described on the Flourish site!
I need this one too!!
My head is fragmenting into pieces.
My thoughts are not cohering.
One minute I am trying on this solution
and then that solution.


BLOG ON MIND FULL
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1667386




PREP OF THE MIDDLE ROOM

Cleaning and painting....


11:49 am
January 25, 2011

Just talked to Jann Garrity at Flower Essences Services.
Please place your orders with her.
her number is 530-265-0258.







RELATED DEEP DREAMS
A CHRISTMAS MIRACLE
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1743074







ABOUT ILLUMINE for Depression

USING THE FES ILLUMINE FLOURISH FORMULA
FOR DEPRESSION, January 2, 2011
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1745984


FES and QUINTON ALLIANCE?

Successes with the FES and Original Quinton
Marine Plasma at the Pacific Symposium 2010

http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1732162


MR DESTINY RADIO SHOW
WITH ROBERT LEE CAMP
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1732162

http://www.bbsradio.com/bbc/mr_destiny.php


INTERVIEWS AND REPORTS
WITH THE FES REMEDIES

There are practitioners all over the world using these
remedies.

http://www.flowersociety.org/interviews.htm


IDEA TO FOLLOW UP ON
SEASONS OF THE SOUL MASSAGE
with WENDY MARGOTT?
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1738263




 

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