ENJOYED MAKING THIS IMOVIE
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Gave me a break from what seems
difficult, if not impossible.
Thank God there is a God in
the Heavens. There must be a way through this.

10:17 pm



3:55 pm
January 18, 2011


Did a massive amount of work today
making Imovies and writing good blogs
for my sponsors.

Profound eye opening experience how
my energy is being leaked off by events
at the house. Profound.

I need to live here in a saner manner.

I have to work here.

I do not have, as others, a whole lot of time for the breakdowns
that are now so intense. Unfair to demand this kind of suck in.


8:57 am
January 18, 2011


Moment of Revelation!

There is no support at home
for the Shift that needs to happen!

This is not the place where I can find that support.

My work this morning is giving me some strength
after a night of dark shadow blocking my soul
from reaching me.

This is a most difficult time.

There is a strength asked from inside me
beyond anything I remember having to summon.

This is the Great Earth Clean Up,
another aspect of it, calling forth adult hood
and strictness of action, the opposite of
lovingness. I have to claim a kind of expression
that is foreign to me.

HERE IS THE WORK I DID THIS MORNING

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THIS IS THE WORK I DID LAST NIGHT
WHILE OTHERS HERE WERE HAVING A DELIGHTFUL POTLUCK

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I had to keep to myself to get some work done.
I did not want to be distracted from the work at hand.



MIND BLOWER


Oh My!

What would it be like to just do my work?

I have been making a movie all morning.
Everyone in the house is doing their daily activities.
Why do we have to concern ourselves with such
strenuous "extra Curricular" distractions of
have a crisis in our home? It has been ongoing
for months and months.

No one really wants to deal with this.
Who has time for it?

How do I get my work done
and pay attention to this crisis of epic scale?

This morning, I am paying attention to my work.
It is very satisfying.

I realize I am not thinking in terms of marketing.
These are activities that deserve a lot of development.



12:18 pm

Oh My God!
Voice in the kitchen.
I am putting on my earphones.

Can I really pull this off?

Is there any place for me to live
where I can do my work and not have all
this input?

Did I go to hastily with seeing the complications
at the nursery.

Ear phones could have handled the sound issues.

How long would it take to extricate myself from
the present living arrangement here at home?
Six months transition? Am I up to fielding the shifts?
Where will I be at the end of this journey here?

What kind of living arrangement could work here?

I do not want this much community involvement
in my life.







 

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