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Date:   1/17/2011 9:52:24 AM ( 13 y ago)

I have gotten lost in the drama. I found out three pieces of information last week that has altered my life. One involves my job and I have some work to do there. So, I dove into the problem with chocolate, diet coke, meat and not a fruit or vegetable in sight. What the hell is my point? I see the history and up and down and in and out. Is this really necessary. One year ago I was hanging on for dear life with my emotions and this year I am complacent and walking right back into the problem as though it were actually the solution. Delusional is all I can say. Am I hoping for perfection? I believe to say 'perfection' is a shallow description of the door way I believe is mine to walk through. Surrender to what is I believe, is the accurate description.

Simple laws of nature:

vegetables provide my body with all that it needs to thrive

sugar, chemicals, and junk rob from my body and spin my brain chemistry out of it's natural well being

It is as simple as that. It is so, so SIMPLE.

Emotions have the power to kill. So, how to identify - and just live by - principles that support my thriving? What the heck is so difficult that I continue to walk backward? I cannot think my way out of this, I must ACT my way out of this.

vegetables
fruit
nuts
beans
seeds
supplements
exercise
journaling
blogging
Pgs. 86 - 88, 4th edition, Alcoholics Anonymous
regular sleep schedule
regular hygiene and grooming (brush my teeth no matter how I feel)
positive, gentle action pursuing what I enjoy


Good golly. I am almost 47. When is enough going to be enough? When I can finally accept what is and is not.

My ex's are not for me.
Sugar, junk food, eating animals and chemicals are not for me. Escaping for hours in television is not for me.
Anger, resentment and jealousy is not for me.
Self-loathing and regret is not for me.
Giving negative power to fear is not for me.

 

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