6:00 pm
January 5, 2011


Shift has happened.
It is time to get in sync with the Shift that happened.

I announced to those at a meeting
last week, I can no longer live this way
in this degree of insanity.

Today was another breakthrough day.

I spend an our on the phone with my friend
and counselor, Judith Larkin Reno.

I reached another point of clarity after listening to her.

She is saying, let it collapse and get on with my life.
She asks, what do Iget being endentured to this pain?

She reminds me that I am the manager.
A manager asks those who need to be told to leave
to leave. A manager is an upholder of the law.

She has been listening to me for five years,
repeat the same story. She tells me her time is precious.
She does not want to continue to counsel me unless she
sees some breakthrough.

She points out I do not have my inner authority.
I am not in community within me with my own archetypes.
I have no inner authority.

The cast of characters I have created only mirrors this.
This got really bad during this Mercury Retrograde
that occurred most of December and came to an end
right before the New Year, December 29.

She reminds me I am not cut out for this job.
Do the job I am cut out to do.
I am the writer.

Do what God Designed me to do,
not what God did not design me to do.

I am grateful that I got this far here.
It has been a good run.

She reminds me that getting older means
grieving the loss of dreams.

I resist hearing that one.

The deeper dream, I will not give up on,
yet this is not the place for me to fulfill that dream.
I am not cut out to manage this.

She reminds me to go where I am wanted.
Go toward what gives me pleasure.
Go toward the work I want to do on the internet.
Managing this is not what I have wanted to do.

It is O.K. to let go of a lot of things.

I do not have to go through them.

I am thinking to pare down to one tight shelf that is manageable.

I do not need all these other things.

I can give a lot of things away to those who want them.

I want to secure my new home.


WHOLE BEING PHOTOS

Who wants these?
Maybe Stephen Markowitz
would like these?

Who wants to scan these?
I need a helper to do this.

RODRIGUEZ FAMILY PHOTOS

These photos, the old ones,
need to be scanned by someone.


NEEDING TO TAKE FES REMEDY
FEAR LESS

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January 6, 2011



 

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