My daily Journey to a healthier life style

Date:   11/22/2010 4:26:51 PM ( 14 y ago)

"Every man is said to have his peculiar ambition." ~Abraham Lincoln

November 21, 2010

Ugh! It is getting harder. I am definitely sleeping less and less due to the ill feelings in the abdomen. Sometimes in bed, all I do is twitch my foot to help me forget about the uncomfortableness. I usually do this when I am in any pain when I am trying to sleep. It is a way to focus on what I am doing and not the pain.

I ended up giving myself another enema, which had surprising results. Still got yucky stuff in my body! YUCKY!!!! I was able to massage my abdomen a little bit longer this time. It did help with the sick feeling. At least I am cleaning myself that way, and helping with my detoxification. I am kind of dreading day 15 if I am struggling at this point with feeling so ill. I know it is mostly the mucus/bile that is in my stomach.

I got vomited twice yesterday, which was mostly frothy mucus, as before, but I didn't see any bile, when again, my toilet bowl water is blue. (Way to go by putting that toilet cleanser over a week ago! LOL)

I was really craving mushrooms last night. I am thinking about looking up the nutritional content to see maybe what my body is really wanting. LOL. I think I am going mostly Vegetarian again, because I can't see why I would really want to eat meat, again, as it seems mostly I crave or desire veggies.

I have been thinking about how not to mix my meats and starches (bad food combinations) so I have been coming up with ways, if I have a taco, I can wrap it up in lettuce, instead of a taco shell. By chance if I have a hot dog once in a great while (probably in the summer over at a friend's house) I can wrap it up in lettuce, instead of a bun. I am finding a way to make a meatless spegetti sauce. I am doing this because I have read that it is not good to mix your proteins (meats) with starches, as it confuses your stomach, when it tries to digest it, so now I am modifying common dishes that mix meats and starches. I am preparing myself so when I am back to eating solid food and off my specialize diet off of my fast, that I don't go confusing my body, which I do eat. I am even find ways I can make veggie burgers so I can really cut down on the meat intake. I am sure I might have meat once in a while, but not as a staple in my life, as it was before. Definitely not eating hamburger in meals, like Phil makes. I never have been much of a hamburger eater, if anything, I would always buy lean steaks, and cut them according to what I was putting it in such as tacos, strogranoff, salads, etc. The only time I used hamburger was to make meatloaf ( signature dish in my family) or stuff peppers, once in a while. I always have been more of a fish, turkey and chicken eater. I am thinking about even find a way to make a vegetarian meatloaf too. LOL

I have been aching a lot, specially around the ovary area. It is weird, it is almost like I feel a pop like achy and then it is gone. I have never had those before. I wonder what it could be.

I haven't been reading much, like was weeks ago, because at times, specially at night, I get so restless that I try to lay down and rest, but I feel so achy/odd/sick that I just end up rocking back and forth in bed, because I am trying to get through this. Phil never notices it because he is never home. I am usually wide awake when he gets home, but I am laying there in the dark, he doesn't know. I have been talking to God a lot to help me though this trying time of my fast as it seems that I am not going to make it. I am either going to break it or die. I don't think I would break it because I have no desire what so ever to eat. I feel to sick to want to eat. I just feel like I am want to die most of the time.

I haven't been drinking much water. I am wondering if some of my problem is that I am not drinking enough water, but I am just not thirsty at all. Actually water doesn't taste that good to me anymore. I am soooooOoooo sick of it, that I would love to drink something else OTHER then water, but I still stick with it.

I hope it improves soon. I am only working until Wednesday, as Thursday is Thanksgving, as well as I have Friday off as well, then my week vacation starts! Yay. November 28th will be the 15 day of my fast, so I hope it doesn't get much more intense as I have been feeling. If it does, I feel that I just might die!

WATER INTAKE: 80 ounces

WEIGHT: 136 pounds



 

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