laborious time consuming process
figuring out something that feels
to a big part of me it does not matter.
tedious, time consuming, detail work
from many months skipped
in order to do the rest of my life
that is working.
The working part could work better
if I did not have to do this.
split very thin with all I am doing...




8:04 pm
July 29, 2010


I need to find a way to delegate part of this.
Do the part I need to do to
move on with my yearly 2009 and get a complete.

Concerned about Youth in house and
letting them do with they need to do
to help.


FROM GOD
(...so to speak...}

6:35 pm

Up from nap.


"Leslie, this is not worth my time
for you to figure this out.
just do an auto payment
from business to arosa
for your phone and an average
for the year...and let that be enough.

Print off all bills so others can
rangle with the split over pennies.

You can make more with your time
that doing this...

Get as much as possible on auto pilot
and let it be... don’t mess with the pennies.
You have dollars and energy to give to humanity."



6:03 pm

The prayer part was in the garden
this morning. Watering plants was
healing.

Taking a break.
I will be back.
going to nap.
Maybe I will get more clarity
about how to make this work...

Did a form...
it may work.
How to turn this over to
helper?

Do not have solution, yet...
fully, maybe a glimmer.

I can't keep on using my time
and energy like this.

Trees calling for help tomorrow
at Exotica Rare Fruit Nursery....
nursery likely will be lost by Sunday eve.
No time to alert community.
Will I be able to respond
and get up there to Vista tomorrow?



work 619. 262-1181

http://www.cox.com


5:58 pm

Had some inspirations
about how to do this...
when to try it in cox Payments ledger
just a glimmer of...

shameful, a part of me says,
to be using my time for this.

Take a nap, Leslie...

Up to November 2009
in figuring out phone part...

put all three parts,
phone, cable, and internet
in Cox Payments.

transfer in to COx payments
from account where paid out of...

7/10/ 10
is from Arosa into Cox Payments...
that worked...

3:07 pm

Ate some food.
Eden Pinto beans,
Follow Your Heart Grapeseed spread,
some Joe the Farmer yellow tomatoes,
some organic corn tortillas;
satisfy me.


Wow!! here are the money numbers,
right here, that I was looking for
on the May 18 cox statement.

Payments
It is crucial I see to have the cox statements.

Printed some up from online.

I do not have the ones they mailed in order.
I need to see payments the bill for ease
of seeing where the splits may have gone.

I want to stick with my phone payments
for the year.

I will have to get back with this heavy detail work
later, or find a way to pass it on to others
to help.


2:20 pm
July 29, 2010


Slow going.
I spent more than an hour on one transaction
from 3/25/09 with many entries in various bank
accounts to pay the Cox Bill. There were portions
overdue at the time. I am meticulously
looking at this to understand how I got in
that confusion and what to do now to avoid
making the same mistakes again.

Automating payments will help.
I have a different system in place.
I have changed the system with internet,
cable, and phone many time over the years.
Now is working without stress.

I must started to automate.
This should help,
if I can get one procedure going.

I am hungry.
I ate watermelon.
Took a couple Original Quinton Marine Plasma
and two StayActiv must now.
bowel looser. Frustrated.

Had one talk with H.
seeking some compassion.
We do not see eye to eye on too many things.

I feel the Vision is in place,
and one person is doing a lot of work
based on this. Another has similar vision.
Others do not get it. H says there is no vision.
This place would not be here if
there was not an overriding vision
that has brought Grace down.

The question is, can the Vision be turned
into a Mission that is grounded.

When P gardens, he is activating the Vision.
So am I.

I need nourishment and some rest.

Cox online seems to be stalling.
Shutting it down. Will start over.
Copy some statements into the computer.
Staying on line too long causes it to hang up.

How is the world doing while I am
playing with these money numbers?

What am I to learn from this?
Is is possible to learn the lesson?
Part of me says the lesson is
give up. This is not worth it.
I am continuing an insanity
and bearing the harvest of that insanity.

Where else and how else could I live
here or anywhere?

I am feeling hunger pains.

I see now why I go for meat.

10:39 am
July 29, 2010

I am getting a late start this morning
at the computer.

Had a bit of breakthroughs yesterday,
but at high cost to stress level.

I am really grateful that my legs are
allowing me to sit so many hours at the computer.
Bowel so so yesterday.
It makes a difference with I take the
Kurchi Bark from MAPI.

AT&T report is in Business 2010.
I went over it again at the end of the day.
I was pleased. I am learning some things.

The downside of this:

There are thousands of trees that need help
at the Exotica Rare Fruit Nursery.
The sale--or sell off begins tomorrow.
I would like to go there, but if I do not take
advantage of this moment in time now to catch up
and improve systems on the computer,
I am not going to move forward.

I need to continue to wear blinders this morning.

I better not get to into much more now.
I better focus on the Cox bill,
beginning with payments from 09
so I can move forward on completion of 09
figures to the accountant helping me.

Lots of details.


LAID IN BED PRE PLANNING COX
BILL STRATEGY FOR THIS MORNING

I played in bed, opened a current Cox note,
and took some notes.

In serving many projects, including
doing the Cultivating Food Justice Conference
150 volunteer hours, conference attendance,
blogging, I did not have foundation of finances
in order.

It is shocking to see the gaps.

KEEP THE BEET: Leslie, feel good about
creating new order. You did a lot that I am
grateful you did. This is a good grounding exercise.
There will be a way to get others involved,
even though you cannot see how this moment.
Take a few more steps today.

Thank you for going out to the garden
and watering some plants. Thanks for using
the hose.

Leslie: I am tired. Anxiety level is up.
I feel I cannot do all this. I do not like my diet
now. I am living way up on the food chain,
eating meat as medicine to keep me going.
I need some others to help me with food prep now.

I need to find something positive
right now to hold on to.
Switch.

HARD TO SEE POSITIVE DREAMS

I had positive dreams during the night
about levels of financial organization that
will give me a better foundation to come out from.

I have the beginnings of a new more organized
system with Bank Statements and key bills in files
that will be numbered for easy access.

I am going to use the Chart of Accounts
and improve this so the Financial Garden Management Journal
reflects #'s with a Table of Contents.

I feel something good can come out of this
investment of work.

I am in process, yes, yes, of
connecting the various worlds I live in
from dream to grounding.
Record keeping brings me into my left brain
and the kinddom of Malchut.
This is essential.

I want a system where staying on top of
the records is part of my regular life.

I am putting a lot of things on auto payments.

10:58 am




REAL WORKOUT WITH BANK STATEMENTS
July 28, 2010
Yesterday

I
Worked at the computer
most of the day from early morning
until late at night, close to 10 am
Breakthrough with the printer.
It was a mess. Fixed now.
Thank God.
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