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9:10 am
July 28, 2010

I got by through grace.
What a wake up call.

I did not sleep much last night.

I have been struggling with a printer not working.
I pulled the plug, without realizing it,
on an external drive.
Device Removal without turning it off first.

When I open presumably my main Iphoto library
that I have been using for three months,
it was blank.

I did not sleep all night soundly.

This was a major loss of invested time and
income.

I have sponsor pictures in here
and originals that I have not backed up.

I called Apple Tech support.
Apple gives great Apple Care Protection.

I learned how to view inside an Iphoto Library.

I worte that out in another blog.
RIght click the Iphoto Library.
Go to Originals and Modified.

The tech Kevin showed me what to do.

With TIme Machine you can back up to the file
previous. I do not have Time Machine.

I do not have a back up of this valuable work
and non replaceable work.

I wrote this Blog this morning.
There is an insightful note at the bottom
about the Mess that I am in.

I need to take action.

I am not suited for what I have taken on here
as manager of this Enchanted Garden Intentional Community
Growing Grounds.

This is really not working.

There are too many people living here.

I started finances for the year a few days ago.

I made good progress.

This printer not working is frustrating and slowing down
my organization.

I need this printer to work.

I have a lot of work to do.

I am feeling too much pressure
from Youth to move faster than I can.

I need quiet, lots of it, to sustain myself.

I am part hermit. I need to be to survive and thrive.

There are too many people around the house,
too much noice. Did I say that already?

I am unnerved too much now.

I know this is the summer shift 2010.

Kenneth came over Sunday.

I was grieving that I allowed valuable beet plants
to be moved from where they were happily growing.
The seed did not reproduce well in the shade.

Continuity of seeds is a priority for me.

Sunday was really bad.
I realized the seeds were not doing well.

Kenneth came over in the afternoon.

He bourght unexpected, lovely beet seeds.

That was healing.

I could set up a trailer at his acres not far from Tecate.

I need to address this clearly and honestly.


TIME TO BACK UP AND SLOW DOWN

I need to give my computer what it needs.
I have to back up and upgrade.

I need organization time,
real Makchut, down to earth time.

This is the time for summer slowing down
and coming down to earth.

THese are valuable days,
not to be waisted on depression.

gratfully, i had another Iphoto Library
unknown to me that I was using.
it was a miractle of sorts.

I cannot afford this kind of miracles.

I need to wake up and do the right thing.

I would like to help the Exotica Rare Fruit Nursery
on Friday.





7:24 am
July 27, 2010

HOW DID I GET IN THIS MESS?

I see the saving of the Exotica Rare Fruit Nursery
as a big issue. I gave one solid month in December
and realized I was sacrificing too many of my priorities
to save this land.

I backed off.

I realized quickly that the price of the trees,
the price Steven Spangler was selling them for,
was not a price that could save the nursery.

My own life is a mess.

I have been giving away my life to many causes
that needed help.

Now I have to take care of myself
if I am to get grounded and go on.





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