7:25 am
July 3, 2010


Called in Kerry Echo yesterday for help here.
I wasn't sure she was coming over.
She did.

Yesterday was Natan's first day here in his room.

There needs to be a whole lot of communication
between him and the person on the other side of the wall.
That communication did not happen.

I can't take full responsibility for community living
working out here. I can't make this work for everyone.
Everyone needs to decide about their own limits,
and not blame me for choosing that they want to live here.

I am following the energy and the opportunities
that seem to be arriving in this play and interplay of
a group living together.

One has special needs in the kitchen. He does not
want anyone talking to him in the kitchen much of the time.
So I think the rule would best be, use the front door as
a pathway into the house. Then, I say, use the front as
an enterway. Then, Natan grabs a broom and begins
to clean up the front pathway. Kerry is lending great
moral support. She has no funds now to survive.
She is on her last money.

She is in a mode of running away.
She runs every day to get things out of her system,
the fears and anxiety.

So Natan is sweeping,
making the front entry feels more useable.

Then, Angelene comes home and overhears.
She likes the energy between Natan and Kerry.
Kerry is encouraging Natan.

later, we are all sitting down.
Angelene confesses, most of the time anyone goes in
the front door, the door bangs, and this disturbs her
rest. She in recovering now from a stress condition.
she does not want any stress here at home.

She speaks up.
She does not want people coming in the front door
all the time.

So what is the policy?? Kitchen door? Front? Door?
Kitchen door when the person on the other side of the wall
is in the kitchen? Kitchen door when in it in the morning
and Angelene is sleeping?

This is a group living condition from hell.

I just woke up in a nightmare.
Dr. Bernard Jensen and some other other thing
were in my dream making requests of me
that seemed distractions from the task at hand,
getting things settled here during Summer Shift 2010
so I can get on to other career stabilization issues
that need to be addressed.

How many things can I address at once?

My room and office is paying the price.
The lack of time I have for self care is paying a price.

I offered Kerry Echo sanctuary for a few days.
We are coming into the July 4 Holiday.
I really need reinforcements here, community support
in the living condition from hell.

I cannot do this all myself. I just cannot be asked
to handle this myself and have my nervous system
thrive here.

Kerry wanted to play with the One On the Other Side
of The Wall. She approached him in the hitchen.
I had to leave it to him to explain his need.
I can't be responsible for everyone's needs here.

We had an explosing here one week ago,
an emergency meeting RE: Someone being allowed
to move in. This was a crisis meeting. We all came together.
The One on the Other Side of the Wall called for the meeting.
I am reticent to talk say too much.

When Kerry, in play mode, came up to him, in the kitchen,
She asked his birthday. She was very excited. She had been
reading Robert Camp's "Love Cards." It gives all kinds of
cues for seeing Attraction- Intensity-Compatibility and
Karmic ties.

She had noted, from conversation, that we would have three
Virgo's here if she someone was allowed to move in.

I will need one more person.

Natan was the first of the new housemates.
He is here on a precarious agreement, an initial O.K.
of one month that I want to see extended.

I need it seen how much this takes out of me.
It becomes a full time, near all consuming job,
working through the dynamics when I new housemate
is needed. We need two now. Not only do we need two new
housemates, we need a new arrangement on the Dome.


THE DOME

The dome has been rented for many years.
The Dome is in need of deep repair.
Scott just gave a 30 day notice on the Dome.
Scott will be around this weekend.
I left Scott a message that I wanted to know
if Kerry could help him.
He stopped by late last night.


SHABBAT at 8 PM FRIDAY

I was inspired to call everyone together
at 8 PM last night to light candles.
I wanted to welcome Natan here.

Angelene, in spite of not feeling totally well,
had just come home. She took a quick shower
and came down. That was important.
Kerry was reading connections all night from
Robert Camp's book. There was a magical
connection. Angelene likes Natan very much.
There is a Love Card connection between
Angelene and Kerry that is very strong.
There is a very strong connection between
Kerry and me. There is a very strong connection
between Natan and Kerry.

SEED DREAM PLANTING TODAY

If I can get Kerry stabilized, she could be
an answer to prayers. Natan and Kerry could both be
outstanding support for the new community.

Natan has powerful contributions to give.

We have to move beyond where we our stagnant here.
Both Natan and Kerry are into taking on the overgrowth
and undergrowth.

GARDEN UNDERGROWTH

There. Thank you. That is a new Revelation
coming through July 3, 2010

NEW ENCHANTED GARDEN CONCEPT

How did we get in the Deepwater Gulf Disaster???

Garden Undergrowth.

We are all suffering from Garden Undergrowth.
We are spending too little time in the Garden.
The Garden is consciousness.

I simply have to call in my big guns here.
Natan is the son of SaRina, my main ally in
Los Angeles. She has been here before.

Eva Becker is also due in town.

We are going to have to have more councils.
Everyone is going to have to have a say.

SEED DREAM REPEAT

If I can use my Enchanted Garden
capacity to invite in opportunity,
Kerry can find a job.
She can pay rent.

I can see her and Natan both using the Little Room
at times, and the Dome.

There is too much energy
upstairs with Natan in the Little Room.

There simply needs to be more communication
from the One One the Other Side of the Wall.

He yelled at me yesterday.
He was screaming because Kerry came up to him
and wanted to know his birthday.

He is insistent that I not talk about him.

I was not talking about him yesterday.
There is no way that we can all live here together
without being extended family.

We all need to express our needs.

I cannot be a Jesus being crucified here
attempting to pull this together all by myself.

This is too much for being with a community behind me.

Today we are going to work on transforming the front
yard.

Kerry would like to cut back the Rose Apple.
I am not into that. It is flowering now.
She would like the house to show.
I am not into that.


FRONT YARD AND WATERING STRATEGY

Natan will be back around 10 AM.
He has a noisy motorcycle. Great.
Just what we all need here.


FIRST THINGS FIRST

I need help from Kerry straightening up my room.

I am hurt that she says
their is a male smell in here,

It likely does not smell well in here.

I have not have time to keep life balanced in my room.

Too much overgrowth.
Too much mess.

I want to begin with her in here helping me
clean up.


DOME STRATEGY

Meeting would be good for later this afternoon
on the Dome strategy.

I am willing to have Kerry in the Dome for August.
Natan could work in there too.

I would put another line into the Dome
as another place to work on the property.


COUNCIL NEEEDED
TONIGHT ON THE DOME????

SUMMER SHIFT 2010 GRAPHICS
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1635750



MISSION AND VISION
SUMMER SHIFT 2010





FIRST MEETING WITH NATAN

Friday morning
July 2, 2010

Good first meeting.
Priorities set.
Front Yard,
improve watering system.
Then, shed green house renewal.
alternative space to prep live foods.

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