Catching up. Day two Toward the Summer Shift on Monday, the Summer Solstice.
Date: 6/16/2010 9:51:08 AM ( 14 y ago)
7:29 am
June 16
Toward the Summer of Shift
The Summer Solstice is Monday Morning
on the West Coast.
These are critical days of prep
for Summer Shift 2010.
I am in the middle of an intense impactful
relationship impasse with an ally here at home.
I am asking him to move. The quality
of our communication has been and is crazy making.
I have been asking him for responses to my
inquiries for months. I cannot build the foundation
I need here on this quality. I have other responsibilities
here and decisions I need to make.
There is another person who could fit in his room,
but there is no communication about him
leaving the room.
This relationship needs to shift.
I was up during the night with clarity,
from a Gavurah point of view on the steps
I need to take.
I am facing vacancies.
I have facing potential rent increases.
There are too many details to work out
by myself and maintain or sustain
by livelehood.
I went to Acupuncture yesterday.
Then, O.B. People's.
Then, home.
I felt shaky coming home.
I used that energy to get into boxes
of papers that have been all over the floor
in my office. I worked on this for numbers of hours
from around after 3 pm to after 8 pm.
Then, I stopped to eat dinner with Chef Jem.
The ally I am having the impasse with was around
the kitchen. It was distasteful. We said nothing to each other.
Lynn Wedekind called later after I was in bed
chilling out to T.V. There was a beautiful woman
whose life is threatened for speaking up about Muslim issues.
She is grateful to be living under the First Amendment.
It is important that I not suppress my communication
at home. This is unworthy of what I am about here.
I need to do some completes with the Gevurah
work that came during the night.
HERE IS THE LINK FOR THE THINGS I NEED
TO SAY AND WRITE
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1638630
THIS IS THE FRESH INSPIRATION THIS
MORNING
Do some gardening.
Sanctify the Keep The Beet Circle.
I bought a hose so I can water better
that area.
Move Keep The Beet down there,
the main ceremonial plant that is going to seed.
There are other Keep The Beet Pots going to seed
there as well.
Have Kerry come over here later rather than meet
at O.B. at 5:30 pm.
Do some seed planting.
Remember: Barbara Marx Hubbard and I planted
the Beet Root in the 2010 Cultivating Food Justice pot
for 1000 years of peace.
Lynn Wedekind and the Whole Being Weekend helpers
consecrated sacred beet seeds for healing the Waters.
Masura Emoto has issued a prayer for healing of the Waters.
I was with him last time this year.
CLEARING, CATCHING UP
I never got to square one with my ceremony presence
at the Unity People's Convention, other than with
Barbara Marx Hubbard. That was more than enough.
I was able to do that thanks to Chris Fox and Lynn
coming there on June 8 with me.
Rev. Michael Beckwith and Rickie came on June 10.
That energy turned into Self Esteem isssues.
They did not any procedures for honoring a press pass.
I took photos anyway, but they are not a priority to upload.
I did bring to their attention a broken statue of Christ
at the nearby Christ Unity Church.
FRESH ENERGY TODAY
Look up Bartleby.
Make a new graphic when time.
It will say.
Prefer N.O.T.
[ Show art in different color so it can be understood....}
Stand Up for Nature's Original Technology.
Keep The Beet.
Join the Enchanted Garden Intentional Community.
Make the Art from the One Beet. Many Pulses
Keep The Beet Pot where Barbara Marx Hubbard
planted.
REFERENCES and LINKS
"I Prefer not to."
This is a reference in part to....
BARTLEBY THE SCHRIVENER
by Herman Melville
"Bartleby the Scrivener can be described
as a commentary on the irreducible irrational
in human existence.
Is that not one of the themes I
am dealing with at home here?
Is this not a part of me,
the part the wants to give up?
To what extent have I surrounded
myself with otehrs of this mentality here
that also express apart of this.
"I prefer not to." That is what Bartleby
says throughout this novella by Herman Melville.
SEE THIS EXCELLENT LINK
on WIKEPEDIA
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bartleby,_the_Scrivener
THE AMERICAN ADAM
The Aotheosis of Adam
There is a book that comes to mind
with incredible quotes.
It has a quote from D. H. Lawrence
I am going to find now.
That is the true myth of America.
She starts old, old, wrinkled and writhing in an old skin.
And there is a gradual sloughing off of the old skin,
towards a new youth.
—D.H. Lawrence
From "Studies in Classical American Literature."
Read more: http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,950613,00.html#ixzz0r251CkVk
THE TURTLE ANIMAL ARCHETYPE
What does that mean?
I have been having this image
of the turtle animal totem in my head for weeks.
What does that mean?
It has to do with drawing within in,
inside my shell. With Lynn,
I was thinking my animal totem was
the lizard. A lizard discards its skin.
The turtle now goes inside his shell,
and then comes out. The turtle has an off season.
Then comes out again.
ENCHANTED GARDEN INTENTIONAL COMMUNITY
One of the shifts recently is that I have
refefined the community here as more than
just this land or the residents who live here.
I see the Enchanted Garden Intentional Community
as the members of the Enchanted Garden Club.
These are the Beet Keepers.
It is time for Beet Keepers, Return!
I will be O.K. if I leave this place.
I would like to stay in this place,
but the place needs to shift to
an expression of the Vision that I have expressed
here:
UP AGAINST PROFOUND ISSUES
I am up against profound issues.
I do not feel connected in all four worlds.
There is a bridging across a divide
of issues that I do not like.
I do not like the issues in between
the Gap.
I am not a good manager.
What qualities of the narrator in Bartleby
do I have?
He was not good at getting Bartleby to
move. So he finally moved out himself.
Do I have what it takes to transform this
condition here that is an expression of
my lack of integration in all four worlds?
Is it not at my age enoughto accept I am
a good Seed Planter?
Can I not simple go vertical,
from top to bottom, with a few things
that would bring me success?
I have more than enough to bring me
fulfillment and joy if I focus.
I have too many projects going
on a grand scale.
They would take a ton of delegating.
Living here is a full time job.
I already have a number of other full time jobs.
THE SPACE HERE
Truly, there is enough space here
and props to launch 1000 years of peace,
but this would be a full time job
to manage this here.
MY JOY
My joy is my writing.
My joy is veing the visionary and seed planter.
I have many needs met on the internet.
I have about ten books that could bring
fulfillment if i could focus on them
and bring them out.
I can do service by this.
This is enough.
I have web development to do
to create a more effective place of service
and flow.
THE SUMMER OF SHIFT
I love my relationship to the internet,
although it is hard on my body.
I sit too much.
O.K. enough,
Enough Catharsis.
Enough writing it out.
COSMIC TIMES EXCERPT
"The Line in the Sand."
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1636432
New ART, or
Dealing with the Difficult issues In need
to communicate?
I am tired.
GO TAKE PHOTOS?
After I nap.
Back to bed.
I long for support right now.
Love.
8:25 am
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