carry water, chop wood

Date:   5/28/2010 8:55:12 AM ( 14 y ago)

Wow - Day 3. One more day. Last night I washed my face, got dressed, put on makeup, went to a meeting and shared, followed up by shopping for veggies. I forgot the dates but that's okay. I didn't buy for the week, I bought for like 3 days.

So, breakfast: banana, fresh strawberries - forgot my juice. Will buy some cider in the store down stairs. Almonds. Good.

Lunch: huge salad w/balsamic and almonds. Very simple today.

Wish I had something worthwhile to report. Just crying. A lot. Gotta do it. No one can do my work for me. Ex emailed me this morning. Sent check and papers from the village post office. I could spit on the Post Office from my apartment. What-ev, baby. Can't waste my brain power on others. Self-preservation. How quickly I forgot from my arrival almost one year ago. Focus on my recovery, my self-preservation, being of healthy service to others, get right with G*d.

Carry water, chop wood. Huh, I was a member and active participant of a zen buddhist sangha for 15 years and it is just coming in. G*d, the drama.

Get back to work. Just breathe. Just breathe. Love and breathe.

 

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