Slowly, slowly...

Date:   3/10/2010 8:56:58 PM ( 14 y ago)

Not a pretty day. The whole day has been moment-to-moment but I shall prevail.

Physically: I have a splitting temporal headache that throbs and throbs and throbs along with some lightheadedness. Very light hunger (a 1 on a scale of 1-10)and a little queasiness from time to time. I know that the SWF in the morning will help with most of these issues. My eyes are glassy, but really, my eyes are always glassy.

Mentally: I am a total space cadet every so often but seem to have a firm handle on things for the most part. I am definitely not as articulate as usual nor do I seem able to make clever jokes. Charm is non-existent.

Spiritually: Not sure if this is the right heading for this but I am feeling somewhat disassociated from myself which makes me less than comfortable in my own skin. I feel ungroomed for some reason, not myself...the way one would feel after a long airplane ride followed by a car ride home.

I've not told my Mom about the cleanse (don't think she would grok it, really). So, when I spoke to her tonight she told me all about what she cooked for dinner and what she will do with the leftovers and all of the steps needed to cook whatever it was that she was making. I held the phone away from my ear and murmurred at the right pauses.

My resolve has stayed strong in spite of all of this, mostly because I keep mentally reviewing WHY I am doing this. Tomorrow will be a huge improvement over today and by Saturday I shall be in the clear with all of it. I reread an old blog of mine here on CZ that I kept five years ago when I first started cleansing which helped a little.

My mood is up, so that's a plus! No clue at all as to how long I shall cleanse this time. Somehow 21 days seems long to me. Of course, anything seems long on my first day of doing it. Ha.

 

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