7:52 AM
February 7, 2010

1.

Had to do a heavy night of processing.
Had to do a lot of deep introspection
and connecting to make sense of
the anxious feelings I had when I went
to sleep.

I had a very busy day yesterday.
Much of it was inspired.

I was up numbers of hours Friday night
writing about the CONSCIOUS LIFE EXPO:

CALLED BACK BY THE ANGELS
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1567910


HOLDING HANDS AT THE CONSCIOUS LIFE EXPO
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1565889


First I started to write about the House.
That Blog was called TAKING BACK THE GARDEN.
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1567904


This was powerful.
I begain writing about the Dream Community
I would like to live in here at the
ENCHANTED GARDEN INTENTIONAL COMMUNITY.

This was good work, but then rather than
continuing, I started to write about the event
way from home, 100 miles away from home,
this Expo. The Expo may represent a return to
teaching for me, but right now it is an event
100 miles away from home, and a time when
events here at the house are pulling me here.

The Foundation of the Community and the House
is up. This is the time to ground.

This may be the time for all of us to ground
and base on lives our profound Truth,
as best as we know it.

Organic Living is called for.
There is no longer any opportunity to skip
steps.

Organic Living means living step by step
in sync with the Laws of Nature. I know my
life and likely, if you look deeply, will may see
your life is also out of sync with the Laws of Nature.

Laws permeate everything, and there is no room
now to break any of them.

It is starting to rain again, as i write this.
That is good.

The other night I planted wildflower seeds
in between the newly replanted Job's Tears
in our front yard.

I still believe,
in sync with the Laws of Nature,
that we can
"Plant a Seed.
Grow A Whole New World."
--Your Enchanted Gardener


THESE ARE THE BLOGS
IN THIS SERIES.

I am going to link them.

BACKGROUND FEELINGS--

I feel abandoned.
This causes me to seek community,
and fit into places where I do not belong.

I have been doing this a lot lately.

I want to talk about it here.

ROOTS work. Jewish feelings.
Sensitivity about no returned calls.
Abandonment feelings can easily be triggered.

What happened when I came home yesterday.


3.

FRIENDSHIP and COMMUNITY

Understanding the need for both.
I have friends, real friends, who love me.
Numbers of them live far away from where I live.
Are community is virtual, over the phone.
It exists thanks to electronics.
It would not exist otherwise.

In a time of disaster, or a breakdown
in dependence on electronics, we would be
out of touch, other than intutively.

FRIENDSHIP + COMMUNITY

I know I need this.
I need Friends--people who are in a relationship
of mutual reciprocity and love + community.
Community is day to day living together.
Friendship needs to be the foundation of community.

We need to begin community with people who we like
and who like us and may want to pursue friendship.


Some of this may or may not be fully true...

I am living with some people now who do not like me.
I am living with others where the basis is friendship,
but who are not yet able to live with the needs that
community asks.

This house may be ill-suited for as many people
who live here to occupy the space. There may need
to be less people. (Something to look at..)

4.

WHAT I DID YESTERDAY

It was shabbos.
Began the day going to the
SUPER RUN.

My spirit told me to take
ECOUSABLE BOTTLES,
I want to blog about that...and
ORIGINAL QUINTON MARINE PLASMA
(gave FATIMOH one of that...)
and the COFFEE plants.
(Tie in with saving EXOTICA)
I also took a beet growing in one pot,
KEEP THE BEET.

and then....

I went to CHABAD CENTER....
why? Soft Drinks...

Looking for love in all the wrong places...
Michelle... greeted me.
but want to make sure I understood toward
the end, that she was not interested in a man.
I am sorry I do not have a way to clear this up.
Her comment was offputting. I want her to know
I welcomed her welcoming me, and perhaps friendship,
but that was the extent of my interest.

I would have liked to have been introduced to the
Rebbinsen differently than a New Age leader
with a reputation...

The Soft Drinks..t here were no soft drinks this time.
Last week I was heavily concerned with all the
soft drinks here.

I wrote this about it....
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1563837



I am concerned that this community is so heavily
using white sugar and aspartame.



 

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