can I do it?

Date:   1/7/2010 12:24:44 PM ( 14 y ago)

I feel like such a success this morning. I know all the small triumphs will eventually lead to the one I aspire to reach the most.
Well, I needed laundry detergent this morning & of course I normally always end up buying all sorts of junk that will be next b/p episode....but not today!
I was successful at walking through the aisles and did not buy one thing I planned to have a b/p party with.
I also did half hour on the eliptical and tried a new yoga dvd I purchased. Excitting.
Of course it was not easy shopping trip...so tempting!
All I kept thinking about was different foods I wanted to eat...like the ice cream, doughnuts, cakes.
But in all honesty, I think most times it's always so much easier to give in to my b/p urges...i don't think I work as hard to talk myself out of them.
I actually don't like to think too much about anything prior to a purge....it's all about my need & greed for the food I am tempted to eat. Obsessing over it.

But I worked hard today on talking myself out of a b/p episode.
I want to continue to analyze these things about myself. It's the only way to I can truly move forward.
Peace & Love

 

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