to do. Down on myself this morning. Facing limits and overwhelm.
Date: 4/17/2009 11:43:33 AM ( 15 y ago)
April 17, 09
9:37 AM
It is the week of Gevurah, strength
and limitation in the day of Chesed.
This is Omer Day 8.
[ Omer Calendar?
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1396045
Meditations for the next 50 days?
Kaballistic Meditations,
see link below... ]
Day 9 has to do with Sef-Condemnation.
I am really feeling limits today,
and more than I can handle.
My body is a concern.
I am having increasing shooting
numbness below my knees.
There is an issue that I do not have the power
to resolve, only accept.
I awoke with a nightmare about it.
On Another Page...
How to back u Imac
before taking it in for more ram????
Called Apple Tech.
O.K. found a solution.
Putting away clothes....
What to do next?
I feel limited in the time I can sit
because of this awareness in my lower limbs.
This is being caused by too much sitting at the computer.
I am in a fog of some kind,
allowing me to clean up.
I am tired, and it is morning.
Paypal for Larry?
Yes. Got a complete on that.
Lots of other completes...
It is 6:23 PM
Friday late afternoon.
Clothes in dryer.
Want to print up more Biz cards.
Walking around property...not far from house.
Messes filling in in lower kitchen.
Why?
P would be pissed.
Can't take his being pissed energy
at me.
Mess in lower basement.
J.M.
He is speaking about energy clearing
Feng Shui person coming in.
They would say what we already know.
Clean up the messes first.
Black bags....only PERF GO GREEN
biodegradable bags...
Well that's an improvement.
To DO:
Print More Biz Cards
on Rhimax durable paper.
Get a new cartridge for HP
Clothes...out of dryer...
hang nice shirts now.
Haircut for Eartj Day week?
clothes from cleaners?
THROW SOMETHING AWAY!!!!!, Leslie.....
7:22 PM
Bringing up clothes...
Hung Laundry....
A box of stuff to my left....
Looks like tools and things.
Some things taken out of old tool area.
Hazing down at the lower area
North, toward the place where things are
stored, my things.
I put in energy this week to bring in two new shelves.
Costly...
No more progress,
as I thought....
Gazing down at the lower area,
we are not inhabiting this place.
I wonder how many of us are
inhabiting fully this place.
I see the point P makes.
It is simplistic in some sense,
but there is truth..
we are not stewarding this place.
I have been putitng my energy into
dreams...
Each dream requires a full definition
up and down the Tree of Life.
This week of Gevurah--limits--
is really a powerful reality check.
It is severe to see what I am seeing.
The dreams, so sweet, have difficulty
coming down the Tree. There is too much
chaos, too much undone, left.
There is too much to do...
perhaps for all of us,
if we attempt to live in harmony
with the earth.
We are broken in too many pieces.
7:27 PM
I am very hungry
for meat.
Go out and get some chicken?
Dull in head, sort of like a headache,
but dull.
Have I taken in enough water today?
7:36 PM
Been printing Biz cards.
Try one on plain paper setting...
see if that goes through the HP.
RELATED BLOGS
& LINKS:
JOURNEY OF AWAKENING,
By RABBI TED FALCON.
Must Read. Kabbalistic Meditaitions
on the Tree of LIfe.
co-author JUDAISM FOR DUMMIES
http://www.betalef.org/resources.html
"Our challenge is to choose freedom.
With Freedom comes true life.
With slavery comes the pretense of life.
They journey from slavery to freedom is filled
with wonder and challenges us to step beyond
our past. Slavery is the stuckness in our lives
that can carry great pain; It is the paralysis
that brings a kind of deadness.
This kind of enslavement separates us
from our fuller possibilities and convinces
us of our limitations. Our memory of
historical slavery is a metaphor for the inner
slavery that we experience still."
--Rabbi Ted Falcon, in
JOURNEY OF AWAKENING
PATH TO FREEDOM
and the AMAZING URBAN HOMESTEAD
OF JULES DERVAIS
is introduced here:
http://www.curezone.org/blogs/fm.asp?i=1384485
PERF GO GREEN BAGS
instead of black trash bags...
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