36 hour dry fast I AM SO ANGRY

Date:   4/10/2009 10:07:32 PM ( 15 y ago)

Here is a post I out on the juicing forum...
no response
:o(

I am on day 10 of my juice fast. not sure how long I will go. I have a blog..
I am on hour 11 of a 36 hour dry fast that I will end tomorrow morning.

I am so FULL of rage it is scary!

I am a binge eater. Been high RAW for 3 years, VEGAN for 15
I work out A LOT!

People would never guess I eat and eat and eat until my stomach feels like it's gonna burst and it's hard to breath almost EVERY NIGHT!
I abuse myself with food, then I abuse myself with exercise.

I have read DOZENS of books on binge eating disorder.
I have seen 3 different counsellors about this...
Watched video's
Kept a journal
used fitday

I have fasted many times in the past and just gained all my weight back and more.

IT just got out of control this last year when my relationship ended.

I have had a BRUTAL childhood facing rejection from both parents. I am 40 and nothing has changed,

I have this ANGER it is SCARY.
Is this the person I am if I do not binge eat?
Are these the emotions that I am stuffing down with food!

WIll I ever get this eating under control???

I am snapping at my 8 year old and my significant other. It is NASTY!

I feel my heart racing in anxiety.

I just don't know where/who to tun to...

:(


It is now hour 26. I am in bed on my laptop.
I have fasted with liquids many times. This is my very first Dry fast.
Cannot wait to break it tomorrow morning with my FRESH JUICE!!

Greenstar has been calling me ALL DAY!
:o)

My tongue is covered in nasty white crap and I have been vegan over 15 years!!
HIGH raw for 3!!
Am scared to imagine what dairy/meat eaters look and smell like!!
My breath is NASTY!!

I plan on drinking 1-2 liters of juice tomorrow morning and going for a run, maybe 10K - I have a 1/2 marathon in May...




 

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