7:40 AM
March 23, 09

It is morning.
I had a terrifying experience last night.
I got to see myself in the mirror of a deep relationship
with a friend.

Myself: I got to see myself.

There is no blame here,
only insight.

There is no blame here,
only revelation, perhaps a moment of Awakenting.

There are study materials
that will help clarify what I saw.

The first study material was an Audio Cassette
by a woman. I discovered this audio cassette
as a spiiritual gift last summer. I found it in a box
of hundreds of audio cassettes.
The audio cassette was unopened.
I was in the process of doing deep decluttering
under the Olive Tree in the backyard here at the
Enchanted Garden Intentional Community.

I listened to this tape no less than ten times.

It described the dis ease of our age,
a lack of ease, a stress that with many
recognizable symtoms incluiding doing too much.

Another symptom is having too much,
and holding on to things.

Another symptom is having no time for others
deeply, because we are so over committed
that we never give time to another person.

The woman who made the Audio Tape,
describes a friendship she had. She
was looking forward to being with a close friend.
They had made a date to be with each other.
This date came after waiting six months for this
precious moment, when the one friend,
the one who made the audio cassette,
wanted to celerbrate in a quality way
the birthday of the other by taking her to lunch.

What happened?
They finallly found time for each other.
They met at a restaurant.
The one who made the tape thought this would
finally be a time to really share some quality space,
but between ordering the food, the other
said that she that left her enough time to go buy a present
for another friend. She was so overbooked.

The one who made the tape was appalled.
He had waited six months for this quality time,
but it never came. This was no opportunity
for real connection.

Can you see yourself in this?
I can see myself in this.

Surprizingly, on the audio tape,
the woman called for living a simpler life.
She wanted to give quality time to her
family, and do less.

This audio tape was made in the 80's.
I was amazed that when I looked up the title
of the audio tape called FRAGMENTATION
ad the name of the person, I found it nowhere.
That person who made the tape
had succeeded. She never entered the
internet age. She may have died.
From the momentum of the audio cassette,
I would imagine she actually succeeded.
She got herself off the grid.
She is alive today, happily living a well
managed life that has fewer stacks of
magazines unread, fewer boxes of clutter,
and more time with her family.

2.

This is what I need yesterday.

I woke up very early.
I wanted to get to the Farmers' Market.
Then I wanted to get to CIty Farmers Nursery
for another event where I committed to set up
my computer slideshow. I had in mind to bring
KEEP the BEET.

The day turned into a broken field play.
It started to rain as I prepping to go to the FM.
It was not clear if the second event would happen,
but I still intended to show up, no matter what.

So here I had these two events to do in one day.

I was already tired from the day before.
i went to La Milpa Organica Farm.

Then, as I prepping for yesterday,
I realized there was this contact info
that I had on my desk, that I could not find.
I had been doing too much.
I wanted to pursue this contact.

I stopped the show. I started to look for that biz
card. I spend about 20 minutes or more looking.
I finally opened up my iphoto library to the photos
from the event where I met her.

Many times, when I am really on top of my game,
I take a closeup of the person's biz card so I can
later match an I.D. In this case, I had done that.

Good work, Goldman.

I was able to continue the contact,
even without finding the physical biz card.

Then, I gathered my things for the day.

I continued to slow down.
I realized a Spiritual Insight:
Often when we want to succeed,
the best thing we can do is not speed up,
but slow down.

If we want to succeed at something, the best thing
we can do is do less, and focus more.

Does that make sense????

3.

I wlll I ever get through my mess here?????
It is amazing what a life of doing too much
has created physically in my environment.

On top of this, I have drawn together a whole group
of others, that are likely mirrors for this same condition
or in one way or another, they are allies for how to
remedy this condition.

Dr. Bernard Jensen would say.
The Remedy grows right next to the problem.
It is right under our nose.
That is how this works in the plant world.

4.

I just thought I remembered where I
put that tape.

I have a sense, it was on the shelf in front of
my face here where I sit every day.

On rare times, I have had this shelf working
for me. I have had it current with what was
totally important to do, or the Seed Dreams
I was working on.

I just started to look for this Valuable Audio Cassette.
I found piles of old biz cards. Piles of things
that still had energy. They were all imcompletes.
Each thing was attached to some other idea
or seed dream I had once had. Many of these
small tidbits still had energy, but I was not going
to get into them. Instead I cleared the shelf
and put them all in a brown paper bag.

I left just a couple things up there,
and even these I can not say are the projects
or Seed Dreams that are priorities for me
today.

5.

What can happen when we do too much?
How can this effect our digestion, as an example.

O.K., look here is my experience.

I have had diarrhea constantly for more than
six months.

I am not digesting my food well.

I am not digesting my experience well.

I can be very willful when I get an idea
in my head.

Often, I can be obsessive, as I started to become
yesterday when I was determined to find that lost biz card.
All of a sudden, my emotions can come up.
I start to feel like a failure. I start to feel ungrounded.

Digestion?

I am not digesting my experiences fully.
I can I. I do too many of them.
My body is internally exhaustive.
I do not have much digestive fire.
I do not take time to chew my food.
I often will eat while standing in the kitchen.
I seldom take time to make my meal
a fully engaging experience,
body, mind, soul.

This can lead to diarrhea.

I am doing one thing in my head,
while I am attempting to eat some kind
of natural food or organic food
that I have turned into Fast Food.
I treat my experience as if I were going
through a Drive Through.

I have had some of the greatest Remedies
a person can find for diarrhea as well as other
so named diseases that come out of being out of ease
with our selves.

I use ORIGINAL QUINTON MARINE PLASMA for one.
This is remedy I really believe in.
You can find pictures to links on this blog
of severe orthopedic conditions with before and after
shots. I have heard from ROBERT SLOVACK,
the banner carrier for this 110 or more year old product,
that his original enthusiasm came when he
was having severe digestive upset, maybe food poisioning.
He discovered Original Quinton Marine Plasma
in Brazil on a night when he was extremely ill.
Someone gave him some. He was better within
a few hours.

I have been taking this product since November.
At times, I have been able to use it to slow down
my diarrhea, especially when I do not eat,
but it has not really gotten the results that I
would have imagined.

At the same time, I hear testimonials of others
who do get results.

I do not believe it is the product that is not working.
I am not cooperating with the product.
I am using it to keep me going.

I celebrate that I have too really outstanding
Winter Conference successes during the season
when I have the most difficult time digesting food.
A person who really wanted to be well,
would have taken the product as well as rested more.

Again, I was willfully wanted to achieve.
I was doing too much, and happily doing too much.
That is my M.O.

6.

I am starting to spin out
in this blog.

I want to get back to my main points.

yesterday, I did way too much.

I enjoyed the FM.

SUZANNAH CROWDER showed up
with her two kids. Then, they also
showed up later at City Farmers Nursery.
It is a joy to be with her and her children.
I seldom have time to give energy to kids.

I continued to slow down at the FM.
It was raining, this, the third day after
the Spring Equinox.

I made sure I visited BARRY LOGAN of LA MILPA ORGANICA FARM.
I made sure I sent time with JOE, my main farmer.
I took time to visit with PHIL NOBLE, the other of my three
BEET KEEPER growers.

I filled a PERF GO GREEN Bag or two with
some of the finest locally growing foods
a person can have. Most people never get food
that is grown with such care, such love,
such taking time, as do my beloved farmers
Joe, Barry, and Phil.

The Kids, BRIAN and MATT started to spin out
when we got they finally arrived at City Farmers.
That is a total Kid place! There is even a petting zoo,
and a whole kid area of swings and see saw.

SUZANNAH helped me make pretty the EG Mobile.
She helped me made take the food out of the baskets
and make the baskets beautiful.

Of course, I felt short, because I did not show them off
as I could. I did not even promote the farmers on that day!!!!

I could have brought them up to the house where
FEEDING THE CHILDREN was doing their fund raiser.
Instead, I played the photo card, knowing that I had
never met any of these new folks. When I take photos,
that gives me the opportunity to really see
what is going on--photography slows me down--
as well as photographer creates an opportunity for
others to want to go out of there way to
find the photos!!!!!!!

Then, I can make sure they find out about KEEP the BEET
because all my photo galleries are linked to my BEET SITE.

7.

Not only did I do the FM yesterday,
not only did I set up my computer slide show,
not only did I set up KEEP the BEET Media Star,
not only did I bring out a couple of my new greeting cards,
not only did I display THE ULTIMATE GARDENER
not only did I take photos,
but I also had something really Immense
on my mind--
one of my dearest, most important
Enchanted Garden pillars--
one of my sweetest friends--
was looking at moving out
of the
ENCHANTED GARDEN INTENTIONAL COMMUNITY
here.

This was really on my mind.

...Any wonder why I do not digest my food????????
I have too much going on!!!!!!!!

Mr. Organically locally grown grabbed
up a couple turkey cheese wraps
as I was moving around taking photos.
I did not even put them on a plate,
not to mention sitting down!!!!
No sitting down for this NEW AGE Giant
of Enlightenment!!!!

Somewhere in the middle of all this,
I called my dearest of friends
who had announced to me
a few days ago, he intended to move
out.

I left him a message, blessing,
rather than resisting his move out.

He called me back an hour or so later.

He wanted to come down!!!!!

He showed up about 30 minutes before
the event ended.

We did a sweet Closing Ceremony.
He played some songs.
It was very sweet.

Then, he helped me load up.
How very supportive!!!

We both knew we had to talk,
so we decided to go out for dinner.

Dinner?
The EG Mobile was filled up with food!!!
...but going to dinner at the
NATURE's EXPRESS, the old KUNG FOOD
made good sense.

Before we went into the eat we
sat and talked, eye to eye
for more than an hour.
Then, he suggested we go in and eat.

We continued to talk a bit over dinner.
This is not his style. He liked to
respect his food, God Bless him Always,
my dear Essene ally.

We, I gave some of the food to MITCH,
the manager for the day.
He appreciated that.
So, I was able to do my job for the farmers
after all!!!!! We made a date to meet at the FM
the following Sunday at 12.
I will set up the restaurant with food...
or maybe have some photos of their food
in the restauratnt.

[Can you see how my Genius Mind
gets me in trouble???????

More and more ideas....
more and more to do!!!!!! ]

8.

When we came home,
I rushed to the bathroom
as usual.

I was grateful I got through the day
without needing to change my undercloths.
Lately that has been an achievement.

[Oh..how is TONY TRACY doing????
I haven't called him in over a week.
I have a good report about the successes
I am having with PERF GO GREEN.

Wow!! What fun! Yesterday at the FM,
I was handing out the product as raingear....!!!!
I did not take any photos, but his was a natural fit.
I got to tell a number of people about this
wonderful project that is parnering with me
to get out KEEP The BEET. ]

Be right back...toilet calling...


It is 9:19 AM


8. Updated with H.
in the dining room.

I want to take care of myself.

READING and FOLLOWUP

Chapter from THE WHEEL OF HEALTH
on FRAGMENTATION.

STORY By MARTIN BUBER
from the book THE WAY OF MAN.

Read the story called PATCHWORK.
and grok the metaphor of
BEING ALL OF ALL PIECE...
all of one peace????--sez KEEP The BEET

Going to take care of myself...
garden ONE POT.
eat, get ready to go to accupuncture at
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