...hoping it helps

Date:   2/26/2009 1:38:22 PM ( 15 y ago)

I don't expect fasting to be the miracle cure I need for my eating disorder. I am sure there are some that would disagree and maybe even discourage me from starting a fast.
I complete understand this.
If I feel during this fast that fasting will only hinder my recovery from bulimia...I WILL stop fasting.
I know how to be brutally honest with myself..it's the only way I know how to be.

There are few things I wish to accomplish with this fast.
One being that I feel a fast will lift me up spiritually.
Second, I want to cleanse my body & mind of this food addiction. I feel the pressure of not eating or bingeing on the wrong food will be helpful. I hope to reprogram my mind & that with time on this fast, my body will start to ask for the good things...fruits, vegetables, legumes, nuts, etc...and that my mind re-learns to listen to what my body is asking for. And to continue a healthy lifestyle thereafter.

I do realize that on a fast I will also lose weight. And of course I would totally welcome that as well.
Of course.
I do welcome getting rid of some lbs.
But I welcome recovery even more!

I worry that a 40 day fast might be too long.
That is what I am shooting for, but I know that someone like me needs to pay attention to some warning signs.
I will take it one day at a time.

I am on day two of my fast. Feel only some hunger pangs.
I did have some hot broth yesterday afternoon. That seemed to work real well for me. And I just might do that again today. Starting to feel a bit cold, but that comes and goes. And I feel present. I like that!

Height: 5'3
Starting fast weight: 141
Current weight: 139


 

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