plans for tomorrow

Date:   1/19/2009 1:03:30 PM ( 15 y ago)

I am trying not to be freaked out by my weight this morning. Scale read 147/148lbs. I don't own the best of scales...I felt good yesterday..ate carbs & snacked all day,so that explains the weight gain. I feel good that I overate and that purging was not an option. I keep repeating that in my mind, and it seems to work.
So today I began my plan of no carbs--I will probably do that for a couple of weeks, then move forward to my liquid or raw food plan. I shall see what feels right. I know that maybe by tomorrow my feelings of wanting to binge will reach a complete high...it will feel like an overwhelming/obessesive feeling that only food can cure. In that state, I am unstoppable. I also realise that when I'm in that state of mind (before a binge)...i do not have the ability to reason with myself...i do not think/feel. Until I have my drug of choice in my mouth...food.
Then I feel too much.
I hope I am mentally prepared when it comes my way.



 

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