Middle of the night thoughts...made some progress. Tossing out is part of what is needed now, and resetting Altars and Play Books for upcoming events. A strategy for Basement is needed now too.

Date:   9/7/2008 6:40:37 AM ( 16 y ago)

4:10 AM
September 7, 08

How do I ground?

I multitask a lot.
Sometimes I can be really good at it,
especially when my Soul is in the drivers seat of my life.

I am reminded of a time in 1970.
I believe that may be the year.
Was that the year of Kent State,
the death of four students shot on campus?

There was a great uproar on many campuses.
I was a student at San Fernando Valley State College.
That school later changed its name to Cal State Northridge.
There were meetings the previous weekend about shuting down the campus.
I attended some of them. It was Chaotic.

No decisions could be made.

When Monday morning came, I went to campus wearing
a sports suit and tie. I became a pillar in front of the Cafeteria.
I directed some students to pull some tables together.
I started to give directions.

This became a hub of activity. Many other students rallied
around. Then leadership sprung in in other places on the campus.
We successfully shut the campus down.

I was basically one of the more conservative voices among the students.
I generally call for action with the system.
Sometimes the system is broken, and other kinds of leadership is needed
to hold a space for order to reset itself.

I woke up yesterday with a sense of lost order.

Clearing Space is essential for Soul Order.

I have to take time to set Altars in my personal space
and create notebooks about upcoming events.
They I create a Play Book, similar to the way a Football Coach
creates a Play Book. Part of this is going Deep and getting in touch
with the Archetypes for the Individual Campaign.

I am lost if I do not have this order.

Summer--the last two--has been a time to regain some order
in the Basement. I have been working for about two weeks
on Boxes and Notebooks from other decades.

I have been working under the Olive Tree in the Back Yard.

I began to shift gears yesterday.

i have to come out of the Past into the Present.

I have the Whole Being Weekend this next weekend.

It it good to have events in time and space that call me.
I pull energy from that.

I also need to have a strategy for the Remainder of the Basement
that needs to be addressed.

Last night was a Birthday Celebration for P.
He is going on a Pilgrimage.
He wanted to to draw together some spiritual energies for the trip.

Most of our housemates came.

The food was lovely, prepared by Angelene and Anna.

The celebration was attended by N and H.

The conversation was about Chocolate, and who loved Chocolate the most.

I am sure there were lots of other topics.

I was looking at P.

I never found an Opening for any Leadership of my own.

I just woke up.

I consistently feel I am in a Hockey game with H.
She throws her weight around when we have group gatherings.
When N and H get together, I realize I am really in a Hockey Match.

All I came think of now, is now might the evening have been different
if I expressed some leadership?

I never found the Archetype.
I had no play book.
I believe P. had one.

P asked me to do an Invocation.

I believe H was in the background.
Did I sense her lack of support when I was doing the invocation?
I generally feel a lack of support.

P also inspired a crisis yesterday of another sort,
on a day when I need to regroup.

I will regroup more today.

It is FM day, food gathering day.

Cleaning up and vacuuuming is needed in here.
Chef Jem helped me straigten up one shelf.

I had a good Coaching with Judith Larkin Reno.
I am so sorry that my recorder is not working.

She was talking about being ruthlessly radient in terms of tossing
things out.

I saved two important things....one from Saint Joseph's Hospital..
Andew....director and one Mitchell. I put in a few addresses.
I tossed a big pile. I really need to make choices.

I cannot be responsible for so much materials.

I have to be more vigilant to toss out more today in here without thinking.

I have no strategy yet about the Hockey match that is consistent.

I have thought to ask H to move, but I do not have the energy for that right now.
There are other major decisions in the wings re: the House.

Judith and Comments here brought up the same theme,
the need to ground.

There are decades of work I have been going through.
I will come up with a strategy and discuss it with Chef Jem.

I will come up with a Play Book for the Week,
including managing a few Crisis.

Under the right circumstances, I would have created a and
underscored a deep spiritual energy around P. Pilgrimage overseas.

TO DO:

put Chef Jem in touch with Rick Berri team Re: Power Wash.
Update with Chef Jem on email and vinegar.

Play Books. for WBW. High Holidays. Pac Sym.
Basement.

Clear my rooms to refind power in here.

More plastic containers.
Create place of order in Olive Tree area.

12 hours for guest of P, or other choice?

Gird Loins...
conversation with H and N about Hockey game
and how I might have done it with summoning energies for P's Pilgrimage.

RELATED:

Pandora's Box is Open:

http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1252535


List of Projects and Books for next Decade.
What will have Space and what not in Basement.
These are the basis of cottage industries for an Enchanted Garden future here.

Give thoughts to Enchanted Garden Future here.

Larissa Henoch, strategy Re: Photos for book for HCI.
Communicate with her.

Create Play Book for A History of Peace on Earth.
Judith will write a forward if I sketch out an outline.

OTHER COACHING FROM JUDITH:

We talked about her strategy when she is clearing stuff
from the past. A lot of forgiveness, she applies. She feels the wound
but is the Observer. She does not give up where Power and Esteem to the Wound
in the Notebook.

My Strategy: I cannot have this much materials.
Much of it has become Clutter now.
I have to separate the Play Books that are Current from the
Weeds in here.

Massive Need to Restore Order in my Brain through
Tossing out and Cleansings the Space.




 

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