12:36 PM
August 29, 08

Spent lots of hours cullting through old projects
form basement boxes.

I got into the deepest oldest dirtiest part,
stuff with boxes where rodents had crawled into
and silverfish ate lunch.

Really deep dust.

in the papers are lots of things I saved
because they meant something.

I am taking photos of some before tossing them out.

Lots of pain in here.

Lots of pain in the present.

Went through one Plastic crate in my room.

This is not my ON-season.

Maybe it is the inspiration I carry that propells me,
but right now, I am up againt my weaknesses,
including saving all kinds of stuff.

I do not seem to have communicated the Enchanted Garden message
well at home.

There is more War here than peace, for me now, although
this is coming from mainly one interaction that I do not feel
strong enough to deal with.

The relationship is bringing in nightmares.

I am listening to an old audio tape about FRAGMENTATION.

I makes good sense about the Gluttony of today,...
this saving...

I part of me resists and still wants to imagine that I am Validated
by the things I have saves, that somehow have meaning.

THere is much meaning as well in an empty shelf.





 

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