----the fog that surrounds----

Date:   8/17/2008 11:42:22 AM ( 16 y ago)

am weight- 198

wow. i've gone 4 days without eating!

before bed last night i stared having big time muscle aches in my arms while watching a movie. they kind of kept me up, so i stayed up until 12:30, which is really late for me. at 4am i woke up to horrible stomach pains and chills and sat on the toilet for an hour because i didn't know what else to do. i definitely passed some interesting things, but i'll spare the details. i was able to get back to sleep and slept until 9am! i woke up with some pretty heavy dizzy spells and feeling really lethargic and sluggish. i still finished the flush in about 1.5 minutes and now i'm just waiting. i think the greatness i was feeling the first 3 days is going away, and i'm really starting to detox.

i'm feeling a bit guilty with the whole process and how absorbed i am in it, mostly related to my husband. every activity he has planned for us i have backed out on. i'm afraid to go far from home and i'm afraid to be somewhere without a bathroom (mostly because of peeing, i'm not having any movements after afternoon). but i feel like its all i'm talking about and i'm sure he is over the topic. maybe i'm getting back at him for making me listen to every new guns and roses song that gets leaked! i've read blogs from people who have kids or go to work everyday and i don't know how the hell they do it. it is all i can handle to read my books or watch movies while laying on the couch. i guess thats not true, i have gone on a walk everyday and i'm keeping the house clean. maybe i'm not giving myself enough credit.

 

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