Now is the TIme to make some shifts in the consciousness here.

Date:   5/27/2008 5:00:56 AM ( 16 y ago)

2:51 AM
May 27, 08

Arrived home tired last night.
Got into a bit of a listening with H
that did not have an high octove of communication.

It felt like a breakdown.

I did not like how I responded.
My Scorpio stinger came out.
I was very tired.

I did not like feeling misunderstood
and decisions made on what felt like Kindergarden Level Communication
coming at me.

Isn't that the way I feel?
The world is basically in a state of Kindergarden Communication Skills
as far as getting our needs met.

Scott is doing some studying of Compassionate Communication.

They could help here.

I do not want to continue to participate in a level of Community communication
that feels Kindergarden and has little space for growth.

The Cost is too high.

There is a 1000 hr course that absolutely needs to be Upleveled to a new
playing field and working model for it to merit continued existence.

The question is: Enchanted Garden Intentional Community,
to be or not to be?

I do not want to continue living with the current players at this level.
Some things needs to move.

There is Choice: Either the Players need to Move in Consciousness,
including me, or New Players need to have an Opportunity to live here.

The Window of Opportunity for Shifts is at Hand.

I need to check the time for when SDSU begins in the Fall.

If there are going to be moves out of here, I need to know this Window
of Opportunity.

There are weeks when no one calls and wants to move in.

As in May.

There are other months when the phone will not stop ringing off the wall.

The Preliminary Research needs to be done.

THe Communication with housemates will be a Full Time Investment of time.

The BEA is an opportunity I have been waiting for for numbers of years.

If I want to go, I have to earmark time to prep for this.

3:08 AM

I do not want to continue to live in the Aura of being seen
and held is such a state of consciousness.

I do not want to continue to play this game with H.




 

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