Can I keep my fingers off food and my mind on the goal?

Date:   4/14/2008 4:07:53 AM ( 16 y ago)

All I can say is “why has thou commitment forsaken me!!”

I didn’t start my fast yet! I fasted for a day and a half. I made the mistake of going out all day without water and the desire for a Moe’s vegetarian burrito over took me! I ate it and it was good! But the guilt is what really makes us fat. Do we realize how our guilt ridden negative emotions are what keep us bound in a body we don’t like? I am working on being conscious about my thoughts and about food… and still it is challenging.

I have read blogs where people said it was hard the second time around but it hasn’t been that long for me!! Why am I so reluctant? Each day that has passed I have thought about fasting and I find myself giving myself a reason to EAT! My mom told me that an excuse is a lie attached to a story. She’s right… I have been lying and convincing myself that I CAN’T do it when I know damn well I can I just don’t want to put forth the will power! I am starting my fast today. I feel bloated and my face has started to break out! I gotta do it!

This is ridiculous! I have been slacking on self accountability and there is no reason NOT to do the things I KNOW I should do! I feel GREAT when I do what I know I should and defeated when I don’t.

The only person we have to answer to is ourselves and I desire to feel soo gooood when I look in the mirror. Not because I am thin or beautiful (I already am beautiful!) but because I am true to myself, because I listen to that still small voice. I have to pull myself by my bootstrap, keep my mouth closed and my heart open.

I am fasting today! I didn’t want to say it incase I faltered but the truth is…I must have accountability and nothing is more important than keeping your word… especially to yourself!

I will keep you posted.

I send you my love and support!


 

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