On letting go

Date:   3/31/2008 11:50:02 PM ( 16 y ago)

I had a hard go of it in the late afternoon. Just achey in my body (J too, he feels it in the same place as I do, the lower back), and really, really hungry. I am so far past emotional hunger doing this that when I do feel hunger it's just physical. Learned so much about why I eat aside from sustenance. Habit, boredom, celbration, the list goes on and on.

I was talking with J about the cleanse and such when he came home tonight. I asked him if he thought his nutrition would change after the cleanse and he told me he just wanted to live his life and enjoy what he ate, that he didn't want to be constantly examining everything that he put in his mouth and it just floored me. He is so right. That has been my life for the past few years, closely examining every morsel that I've put in my mouth. Rigidity. Not that I want to start eating foods willy-nilly, I wouldn't eat certain things regardless (processed foods, fast foods, foods with trans fats or HFCS, etc, etc, etc). It's just that I haven't been enjoying what I eat. It's a prescribed regimen and it serves no purpose. This cleanse has reframed how I look at food, or J has. He's right, time to enjoy.

Time for me to lighten up.

Wendy

 

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