in process,

Date:   2/27/2008 6:46:26 PM ( 16 y ago)

4:33 PM
February 26, 08

Just came back from Bill Tall's
City Farmers Nursery.

Hip, a high school student
helped load up ten five gallon buckets
of top soil mix. I also got two tray starts,
one of strawberries and one of lettuce.

I brought back the Red Rider wagon I
had borrowed for the Pacific Symposium '07.

Colen is carrying the ten buckets down to the
side garden now.

I am doing an energy exchange with Bill.
I will trade him a slide show of photos
from City Farmers Nursery that will go on his
web site. We are basically making an open ended trade.
Those are my favorite kinds.

Here is a picture of Bill and Abbey,
the Dog.


http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1120010


I went out feeling pretty wealthy,
but then I asked myself,
this trade I am making,
it is going to keep me pinned to this computer,
is that the direction I want my life to be
going?

It is work that I have done for the most part.
I already have the first edition of such a slide show,
but there will be more hours to put in.

I am going through mental pain
right now, some kind of a blockage.
I am suffering from a lack of human
contact at the level I would like.

What would my favorite way to exchange energy be?

I would like to receive back for
teachings that I give to groups, small groups,
or individuals. Something like that I find fulfilling.

I like the creation of Art Work,
and the writing I am doing on Curezone.
I like these things for many reasons,
but I am missing human connection in 3D.

This intense feelings I am having,
these feelings that are building up,
they are coming from spending so many hours
at the computer doing record keeping.

I am fighting against feelings I can't do this work.
It is learn disability on the one hand,
but it goes deeper. There is a high cost
of this energy enchange.

What am I getting out of this?
What is the exchange of my Life Energy
for doing this record keeping?

I need to evaluate what I need living here.

Who do I want to be supporting?
What is my ideal community?
What would be fulfilling?
Who are the people I want to live with?

What would make this exchange of energy
feel more worthwhile?

S for example.
He gives about one hour a week, realistically
toward this 12 hour work trade.
Maybe i am a bit off. I will ask him.

He does not get that much out of the garden.
A number of the people who live here,
what are they getting out of living here?
What am I trading to provide the space for
them to live here?

Mental Blockage

http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1121496

++Year Plan and Priorities++
Read this again, Leslie, thank you!

http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1117245


What did I do today?

6:07 PM
February 26, 08

Reviewing the day:

Colen in garden.
Spent about 1 hr with him on and off.
Garden beds shaping up.

Went down to Bill Tall,
City Farmers Nursery to get ten buckets
of topsoil mix for garden and trees.
About two hours.

Financial:
I downloaded Maintenance transactions.
Stress with transactions catagories.
I was able to generate a maintenance report that works.

Paid Western Exterm $38.00 on line.
Get this on in new payees.

FU!! (Put in auto pilot for bills
to pay. Check. Changed amount.
When does it come in.

Smell in EG Mobile?
$16 bottle of Frey Wine opened
and poured out due to heat.
Bought for Ron, but he did not show up
at Party. Cleanup. 30 minutes.
Washed pretty cloth.

SDG&E has lines out front.
They are about to do the fix on meter.
Better leave a message for Alvin.

Alvin Hernandez, left a message on his cell.


Tree Trimmer...no show; tomorrow.
Rainbow tomorrow... still leaking in basement
when faucet turned on.

Tomorrow AM.

6:16 PM
My head is tired.
Need to nap.

go back to check Western Please in Quicken.
Pay Cable bill...

Fix transactions..get on auto pilot...
or work toward that...

wirk on CA tomorrow after paying bills...

dowload..personal transactions, please...








 

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