we can do it!

Date:   2/7/2008 11:46:26 AM ( 16 y ago)

I konow this is the second time I'm writing today, but I really need this...

This blog is my best friend, now :)

I'm doing OK, not hungry at all, only when I think of food. The hard part is keeping myself occupied. I have no job at the time and school hasn't started yet, plus I live alone, so it's kinda hard not to eat, cuz it's been my subterfuge... I eat to pass the time, I eat not to feel alone, I eat to give myself pleasure. I eat emocionally, that's the truth.

I'm a food adict. And I feel like a drug adict going trough a withdrawel process. It's kinda the same, because I'm nervous and constantly shaking off food thoghts and making up all kinds of nutty reasons why I should eat. Convencing myself this fast will make me weak or ill. Convencing myself I FEEL sick... And it's NOT TRUE! I feel wonderful and full or energy! I'm happy and feel light... Most of all, when I'm not thinking of food, I feel free.

And this is exactly what I'm fighting for: recovering my freedom. Freedom of food cravings, freedom of bad habbits, freedom to live without this cursed adiction!

God help me, I'm going all the way! I AM going to complete the 10 day fast! :)

If you're going through this too, just think positive and believe in yourself!

YOU CAN DO IT! WE CAN DO IT!

C ya soon :) *







 

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