facing fear of fasting

Date:   1/23/2008 11:07:32 AM ( 16 y ago)

Okay, so this will be Day One of the Fast. Let me state my reasons for doing this, so that I can look back on this later if I waver.

I need to rest my system. I have currently stabilized at my goal weight of 118 and have been here for 5 months. I feel out of touch with my new body and its needs and would like to fast to devote my mind to things other than food, dieting, maintaining. Originally, I said I would fast after maintaining for 4 months, but for some reason, I have stalled on this and need to get a move on now.

From what I have read, my plan is 3 liters of lemonade a day, with Senna tea in the evening. The idea of laxatives really scares me and I need to find out why it bothers me so much. Other people have reported such scary effects of the salt water drinking that I don't know whether I will work up the nerve for that. Some people have said they vomitted. The thought of vomitting doesn't scare me as much as the thought of intestinal cramping and 3 hours on the toilet every day. Oh, my.

I don't know at what intervals the lemonade is to be drunk. Funny, now that I think of that, why didn't I ever read anything on timing? If it's 3 times a day, 9am, 12 noon and 9pm sound appropriate to me.

I will write later. The worry I have about this has to be faced, I have to find the root of this fear. For once, I have to work with my body and really spend time thinking about all the things it has done for me and how my relationship with it changes over the years.

I beat obesity, but now the real work begins.

 

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