“Live life fully while you're here. Experience everything. Take care of yourself and your friends. Have fun, be crazy, be weird. Go out and screw up! You're going to anyway, so you might as well enjoy the process. Take the opportunity to learn from your mistakes: find the cause of your problem and eliminate it. Don't try to be perfect; just be an excellent example of being human.” Anthony Robbins quotes (American advisor to leaders)

Date:   12/21/2007 1:07:12 PM ( 17 y ago)

I want to clean up my health--life. Trapped in this sick insecure frustrating limbo of eczema, I want no more.

Sometimes it hurts being a huamn, to have a heart that is capable of a frightening range of emotions. Ecstasy, gladness, satisfaction, gratefulness, compassion, love, hope, melancholiness, depresseion, nostalgia, contrition, regret, guilt, moroseness, anger, fury, jealousy, envy, hatred, hopelessness, helplessness, numbness, nothing. The heart never skips a beat, never pauses a second, from cradle to grave. To be incredibly beautiful yet only able to see all the flaws. To be stunningly gorgeous yet plagued by sickness. To fall in love yet not understand why he behaves so cooly. To discover the freedom to choose yet be beleaguered by your own parents. To desire a new good life yet all you ever know is the destructive, damaging past--how do I go from here? To find the child in me when I pick up a medical textbook or read a patient's moving tale of his struggles yet too fatigue to get to school. To want to fall asleep sweetly and wake up excitedly yet going through each day as if you are passing time. Because, this person, the "you", I see now is not who I am, who I believe myself to be, who I want to see myself become.It evokes pain. A pain so quiet but deep that it pierces the soul and spills out in silent tears.

I want to clean up my life. The one way to do it correctly and quickly is to do a deep detox. I want to be the girl I have always dreamt to be. There must be more beauty to being a human than suffering


 

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