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Day #2 100% Raw Vegan
Finally, Day #2...!
Date: 9/21/2007 8:26:51 PM ( 16 y ) ... viewed 1567 times
Yesterday worked out great. I had a very pressing job which made it impossible for me to stop and eat for much of the day -- and I was really hungry! But then by evening when I COULD eat, I really wasn't all that hungry. That "hunger" I had felt earlier in the day was obviously the addiction kicking up. Oh, and for dinner last night for the family I fixed BLTs. I did not touch any of it. Yea!!
Today I did good too. Made zucchini bread this morning (which I used to love to eat) and it felt soooo strange not to even taste it, but I have become convinced that even small tastes are more than I can handle. It just is not worth the risk.
I know people say, "Oh, it's okay. You can't expect to be perfect all the time. It's okay to have a little because [fill in the blank: you've been good for so long or it's your birthday or it's Thanksgiving or whatever]." We want to MINIMIZE the problem -- which in this case, for addicts like me, just becomes a treacherous form of DENIAL -- denial that having "just a little bit" or "just a taste" can all-too-easily throw us off the wagon for hours, days, weeks, months, years -- yes, even years!
Really the best way to MINIMIZE the problem is to FACE it, and NOT be in denial. We can tell others whatever we want, but we MUST be honest with ourselves: "I cannot do that. I cannot do that without risking my health and without putting myself into another freefall of angst and desire."
I had a 100% raw friend years ago that told me he NEVER goes to any gatherings where people eat food -- ever. At the time I thought that was awfully extreme. Now I realize that he was doing what he needed to do. I hope I can still be around those who eat food, but I also know it takes extra discipline (or blissipline) to do that.
I'm still having trouble walking much of the day. I pray I will be able to STICK WITH THE RAW this time so I can get well too~!
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