Thank you. You are wonderful, as always. I have to say, I got really meloncholy, hopeless and just feeling sorry for myself. This is taking so long and I feel as if I've paid for my Depo Provera shot mistake a thousand times over, but my body is still struggling to heal.

I am strong willed though and I spend most of my time being optimistic, but I have my downs too and the last down was my lowest ever. Infact, I got a lot worse after I wrote the blog message you responded to. So extreme that I couldn't get online to write about it. It was bad. I was screaming and crying for days and wanted to die, like a nervous breakdown. I was crying at work whenever I could find time to be alone. I would even go to the bathroom just becuase I knew I couldn't keep from crying.

Still I have to say that I do love myself. I love myself very much. The fight is simply more than I can endure on a constant basis. Why does it have to be so relentless? I wish I knew why.


Thank you Kermit. You truly are the best. Love ya!

Lovey