I understand how you feel, one of my dear friends has also had first hand experiences at the ashram.... It's difficult to SEE this kind of information when there is so much at stake....so much attachment.... I did not see it for several years, even though I was aware of it.

I loved Baba too and prayed to him at one time.... however my quest for Truth is a greater Love.... it has been a difficult process letting go of some of my own sacred cows.... not easy, but very freeing!!

Thank you for blessing and I honor and wish you the same.....