I have found myself a sinner, unknowingly, unwittingly, thinking I could attain something that I wanted, ironically thinking that the body could heal itself I attempted to heal from an illness I have suffered many years - and found only God can do that for me.

Then the other sin of mine, moral corruptness, a broken commandment of God's, again unknowingly I thought I was an answer for something - I was not and am not - I cry and cry unceasingly for what I will never be and for what I have done in my weakness - a loss I may have caused in an endeavor to be what I may not ever be

I worked for naught, lost many years of my life, trying trying but not trying enough and now feeling the sorry state of my soul lost to time and an energy I once had that is now wasted -

I know now that God, whatever that is, is the supreme of all there is, and that to fear and honor God is part of human life, and that we must abide by God's commandments, commandments put in place to help us live our lives and be true to our reality here

Love, as a dream on earth, is not ever to be transgressed. Ever. It is to be honored and respected, and not crossed. It is God's gift to us and if we spurn it we spurn God. And if we disrespect love, we disrespect God. God gives us each other, men and women, to care for and treat with respect, dignity, and compassion. Anything less is a transgression of the inviolable commandment God granted.

Love between two souls is not to be transgressed. It is a gift from God to the two involved. If anyone interferes in that there is harm, and can lead to damage for the soul and the body. Respect for love and the other is a commandment, as Jesus said "love one another as I have loved you" and in that is a message of redemption.

There are two messages then - to fear and honor God in all his power and omniscience, and to also love God for the gifts that have been given to us. And to love those gifts for their granting. God is more powerful than the most intense sunshine. Faith can do more than move mountains, it can sacrifice your own soul as God's power is like a koan - ironic and unspeakable.